Everything I Didn't Say // Luke Hemmings

Dear Mary,
It's been a month since you left me. I admit that it's really hard for me to lose someone, someone I really love. Yes Mary, I love you but I never had the guts to tell it to you because I'm afraid that you won't love me back. For you, I'm a friend. For me, you're also a friend but deep inside, you're more than that. Seeing you with another guy shatters my heart into billion pieces, but there's nothing I could do, right? I'm just a friend for you.
I still remember the day when I accidentally stepped on your foot inside a coffee shop. I immediately apologized for what I did but you're like, "Sorry can't heal my aching foot!" Haha yeah, I still remember what you said to me.
Later on, you just found out that I'm your cousin's bestfriend, which really pissed you off. Whenever I'm at your house to visit Michael, you always ignore me like I'm just a piece of dust in the corner. I don't know what has gotten into me but one day I asked you why you're ignoring me. You simply told me that you hate me. You also told me that I'm an asshole because I stepped on your foot. I told you that I was really sorry for that. You don't know how happy I was when you told me that you forgive me. Out of my mind, I suddenly hugged you. You were shocked because of my sudden action but you hugged me back.
We became friends since that day. Sometimes, we hang out. I really miss those days.
One day, I went to your house. I found you with a guy sitting next to you on the couch. She was your boyfriend, Austin. Unfortunately, your relationship lasted for just almost 3 months because he moved to another country. I don't know if I should be happy that time or I should be sad because he broke up with you. You really missed him damn much that you couldn't sleep every night.
Until one day, I just found out that you were harming yourself. I found you on the bathroom floor, lying lifeless. There were bloods on the floor as well as on your right arm. The cuts were very deep. I immediately brought you to the nearest hospital with Michael.
My whole world just turned upside down when the doctor told us that you didn't make it. I felt like there was a very sharp knife being stabbed in my heart.
Michael and I really miss you until now, Mary. It's really that hard to forget you and all those memories we had together. I miss your smile, your laugh, your sassy attitude, your ocean blue eyes which I found myself getting drowned every time I stare at them, your dirty blonde hair... I really miss everything about you.
Mariah Georgina Clifford, I love you more than anything in this world, I know that it's too late but this is everything I didn't say...

Yours truly,
Luke xx

LUKE POV

I put the paper inside a small white envelope after folding it. I'm going to visit her grave later after the show.

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(At the show...)

I tried my best to hold back my tears that were threatening to spill in any seconds now as I spoke through the microphone, "This song that we're going to perform right now will be dedicated to the girl I love. If you're listening right now, please listen carefully and I hope you'll get the message. I love you..."

I sang my heart out as our memories together came flashing back on my mind. These tears that I've been holding back freely flowed down my face non stop.

"This is everything I didn't say..."

I looked at the crowd when the song ended and saw her clapping her hands as well as giving me a genuine smile. She's wearing a simple white dress but she's still beautiful. She mouthed me those three words that I never expected to be heard from her.

"I love you..."

And with that, she faded away...

"I love you too, Mary..."

END

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