Chapter two:
A.M.P.V. 's Point of view
Flashback
"Malapit ka na bang matapos?" Tanong ko habang nangangawit na akong naka tayo habang hawak hawak ko yung cane na iniregalo niya.
"Basta malapit na. Unting unti nalang... Wait... sandali, isang stroke nalang... yan! Woohoo! Tapos na!" Sigaw niyang may galak.
I want to see her joyous face and how she draws and paints. How she holds the pencil and brush while she does her thing. Or what her expression is when she's doing that.
I badly want to see her. I want to watch her. To look at her face.
But the thing is I can't. Shit this disability.
"Pwede ka ng gumalaw uy!" Tapik niya sa balikat ko.
"Ah. Yeah. I know." I said while I tighten my grip on the cane.
"May problema ka ba?" She asked.
"Problem? None, but problemS. Yes" I answered emphasizing the 's'.
Hindi siya sumagot pero pakiramdam ko tinititigan niya ako ngayon. I'm feeling uneasy by some kind of way.
I'm blind but why can I feel her gaze?
"H-hey." Sabi ko. Why am I stuttering? Damn it.
"Lika ka nga dito!" Sigaw niya tsaka niya hinila yung braso ko at pinaupo sa damuhan.
Naramdaman ko naman siya tumabi saakin na naging dahilan ng pag bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
Everytime she does that, this heart of mine couldn't stop this kind of irregular beating that I'm feeling.
"Sabihin mo isa isa yung mga problema mo. Sabi mo problems eh. With S. Ibig sabihin marami."
I let out a sigh and answered her directly.
"One of my problems is my disabilty."
"Bakit naman?"
"Because of my Mom. I think she despise me cause of my current situation. You know, this." I said while gesturing my hands to my eyes.
"Hm. Baka. Pero baka hindi."
"Why'd you say that?"
"Kasi hindi lahat ng inaakala natin ay totoo. At sabi nga nila diba? Maraming namamatay sa maling akala." Mariing niyang sabi.
"This is the time I heard that phrase."
"Ano pa?"
"Second is my biological Father."
"Ha? Ibig mong sabihin hindi mo totoong tatay si Sir George?"
"Uh-yeah. My Mom and Dad George remarried at Korea. And I've never heard from my biological father since then. Actually since the date of my birth, he didn't show up. Well I was already in the womb of my Mom when they remarried, I was not born yet. Dad thought I'm his true son because mom's womb was not that big yet and thats the reason why he thought that I'm his son and Mom was not pregnant with other man."
"Ah, hehe paki ulit? Hindi ko naintindihan eh."
I sigh. "Maliit pa noon ang tyan ni Mom kaya napaghinalaan ni Dad na hindi siya buntis. Okay na ba?"
"Ah, hehe oks na. Paano mo nalaman na hindi ka anak ni Sir George?"
"DNA test ofcourse."
"O. Ganun?"
"Yeah."
"So ano pa yung problema mo?"
"My feelings,---" Napatigil ako.
What am I saying? What feelings?
"To whom?"
Napalunok ako. Sino nga ba?
Who am I with when I'm feeling down? Who am I with when I am alone? Who am I with when I feel sad? Who am I with when this heart of mine beats fast? When I feel uneasy? When I loathe with happiness? And When I feel like I'm being loved?
I just realized know. That she's one of my problems. Wait, how did she become a part with my problems? Maybe til now. I think no. But yes, because I've been thinking this since she became a part of my life.
Okay, I know that doesn't make sense and all but that's how I describe it.
"Its a secret."
I hear her groan with disapointment.
"Wah, imot."
"Huh? You saying something?" I asked her.
"Sabi ko ang damot mo."
"Sorry," I said "but you'll know eventually." I said in whisper tone.
"May sinabi ka?"
"Sorry, that's what I said."
"Hindi," Pagmamaktol niya, "meron pa."
"Maybe you're hearing things that normal people can't hear, huh?" Sarkastiko kong sabi at napatawa.
"Baka nga."
Silence.
Silence.
Silence.
"Uh-your drawing, can I touch it?"
"Ah-eh oo naman."
She handed me her 'sketch pad' and she let the palm of my hand feel the paper where she had drawn her drawing of me.
End of Flashback
"Any news of her?"
The man sitting on the driver's seat wearing a suit didn't answer.
I sigh in response.
It is really hopeless. I leaned and looked outside the car.
"Actually, we have."
I looked at him with aggrevation and also full of thoughts.
"Take me there, now."
