Call me Gates

*Synyster Gates*

It has been already almost 4 years since His death. Oh how much I miss him! The fact I'll never be able to talk to him again kills me inside and everyday he's my first thought, my dear Jimmy. The other boys are handling his death much better than me to be honest, Matt is the one who keeps a little stuck on Jimmy too, but he has his lady to help him. Well I've Michelle too but it's different, I know she liked Jimmy a lot but she doesn't understand... I knew him since I was a teen and now he's no longer here with me.

And he would be, probably, the only one able to help me right now. I just discovered I've a daughter, a eighteen years old daughter. I never saw her or new her existence till now. She called me yesterday when I was in the studio playing guitar, I didn't realized who was the number but picked up

*

-Gates.

-Oh Hi! I'm Dayana you probably don't know me...

As I heard her name a vague memory pops into my head but quickly goes away

-No, sorry I don't know any Dayana.

I was almost ending the call when she keeps talking

-And Mary Montgomery?

I freeze, how could I forgot Mary?! My first friend, my first best friend, my first girlfriend! And the first girl I ever hurt.

-Yes, I do know her. Is she ok?

-Oh well not sure what to answer since she's dead.

-What?! What happened to her?

-Can we meet? She let me something to give you.

-Yeah sure. At three, in Starbucks? The one in Atlanta Ave? Wait, you are in Huntington Beach right?

-I always lived here. And yes at three.

-Look how do you know Mary?

She giggles a little before answer

-She's my mother.

*

And before I could say anything she hung up. Dayana... 16 years... I left Mary around 16 years ago. Coincidences probably. Or not...

*Dayana*

  I knew that the famous Synyster Gates was my father, always knew it, mum never kept it away from me but for respect to her I never tried to contact him, till today. My mum knew him and fell in love for him when they were young and stayed together till this one day when she discovered she was pregnant from him and was going to tell him but before she could do it, he told her he was going to leave town with his friends of the band. 

She never got to tell him she was pregnant from him and they lost all the contact, I know that, above all the pain she handle she got because he left her, the years that passed and the fact he married someone else, she always loved him.

I know things were never the same for her after him leaving her but she raised me like it was a normal thing and was a really good mother. A few years ago she was diagnosed with cancer, she tried to hide me the longest she could but a few months ago she got really sick and she told me everything.

She told me to contact my dad and how to do it, and also gave me her journal for him, everyday I saw her writing in that journal but she never let me read it. Can't blame her it was a private thing and I respected her decision.

I wonder how will be Synyster face when discover I'm his daughter. I hope he doesn't sends me away because I've nowhere to go after my mums death. I lost the house because no work, and that means no money. Now the only option I've got is my dad.

Who doesn't know my existence or even dream about it.