Part Of My Life

Chapter 5

Kei                                                                                                                                                                                                     I didn't wanted Lay to kiss me. But when he kissed me I didn't kiss him back, because I felt confused, I just stayed stay without moving my lips. I was confused, Sehun kissed me, and now Lay. What do I do? When I saw Sehun my heart beat so fast that I couldn't even breath. I did felt something for Sehun, but I felt something for Lay too. I was so confused. Sehun looked at me and left. I got up from my chair and Lay hold my hand.

Ha Joonha, what's wrong? ¨Lay said confused¨

I have to explain him. ¨I pushed my hand so he let it go and I ran to Sehun¨

Sehun! Wait! ¨I ran to him and he turned around to me¨ Sehun, this is not what it looks like. ¨I said with tears in my eyes¨

That was not was it looks like? Weren't you kissing with Lay? ¨he said mad with tears¨

Okay, listen. He kissed me first. Please, try to understand. ¨I said almost about to cry¨

Do you feel something for me? ¨he asked¨ I really...like you.

Listen please. I feel something for you, but I feel something for Lay too. I...I...¨I sigh and put my hands on my face¨ I feel so confused. ¨I started to cry¨

Yah, please don't cry. ¨he said and hugged me¨ I...I understand you.

His hug felt so good. I felt save when he hugged me. I knew Lay was watching us. I wanted to talk with him. But he just left.

Sehun I..I'll go inside now. ¨I stopped hugging him and head to my door¨

Yah wait! ¨he said but I was running to my door with tears and went inside¨

I started to cry. This was not what I wanted. I just wanted to be happy. Sehun started to knock my door, but I didn't respond him. Then he just left, I guess. I ran to my room and lay down on my bed while hugging my pillow. I felt like if I was about to cry of sadness. I fall asleep for a while. Then I heard some footsteps in the living room. I got up from my bed and went to the living room. It was Lay.

Ha Joonha...I...I'm sorry...That wasn't my intention. ¨he said¨

Lay...you didn't have to do that. ¨I said looking down¨

I know, but I could not resist because I like you. Okay? I like you and I'm sorry. I didn't know Sehun felt something for you. ¨he said¨

Lay...I... ¨I sigh¨ I'm sorry too. But...right now I have to concentrate on the hospital. ¨I said¨

Can we at least...be friends? ¨he asked¨

Of course we can Lay. ¨I said with a smile¨

¨he hugged me¨ Gomawo. And I'm so sorry¨ he smiled¨ I'll go now.

By the way, how did you came in? ¨I asked confused¨

From the balcony. ¨he laughs¨ I have to go now, everyone is sleeping. Oh and...Do what your heart wants to do, about Sehun and me. If you choose him, I won't get angry or sad. I'll become happy for you. ¨he said before going to the balcony and leave¨

Go now. Its late. ¨I said with a smile¨

After he left I didn't slept nothing. I was thinking about both of them, what do I do? Should I talk about this to someone? I really need help. Now was 12:13am, and I wasn't sleepy at all. I was thinking to go to the hospital, because I knew it was still opened. So I called the secretary.