Part Of My Life

Chapter 9

Sehun:
Thirty minutes had passed. What were they doing? I wanted to see her so badly. I stood up from the chair and started walking in circles waiting for these guys. While they were seeing her I was watching at the picture I took her when we had our first kiss, when she was feeding a chipmunk. She looked so beautiful here, and happy. I was smiling while watching that picture. Also Baekhyun had send me the picture he took us when we were kissing, this little brat. I really got mad at him when he did that but I felt happy. I was watching that picture too. Aigo, these are memories that I don't want to forget about. The time passed and I couldn't help it more, I head to the door and when I was going to open it, the guys opened it and came outside. Chanyeol, Tao, and Chen were crying. That made me tear up a bit. Her mom also came outside. They all made me feel nervous and scared. I took a big breath and opened the door, I came inside and I saw her. She was laying on her bed with a tube in her mouth that made her breath. I walked slowly to her and sat on a chair that was next to her bed. I just looked at her, she had wounds on her face, her lips were dry, and she was also pale. I grabbed her cold hand and put it next to my cheek, then I started to cry. 'Joonha, its me, Sehun.' I said crying. I wanted to kick something, she didn't deserve this. She was just breathing, that was all she was doing, but she couldn't wake up or even open her eyes. I didn't even know if she was listening to me, or feeling me next to her. I lay my face on the bed but still holding very tightly her hand and also sniffing. All I wanted was just stay with her and hold her hand, that was all I wanted. Staying with her made me a bit happy, but I wished she wake up and give me a big hug like she used to give me. I closed my eyes for a while, I didn't know I fell asleep.

While sleeping, I heard a voice calling me. I woke up and the first thing I did was look at Joonha, but she was still at sleep. I looked to the other side of the bed and saw her mom sitting next to her. She looked at me and gave me a friendly smile, but I just cleaned my tears and bowed my head to her.

Sorry for waking you up. ¨she said¨

I really didn't know how to speak English, but I could understand it just a little.

It is okay. Do not wory. ¨I said nervous¨

She smiled and looked at Joonha, she started tearing up. She grabbed her hand slowly and cleaned her tears. I know it is not too easy to see a son or daughter with an oxygen tube in his mouth, but I couldn't stop staring at her mom. This must be so difficult for her as a mother, I could see that in her eyes.

I waited so long to grab her hand like this. ¨she said still grabbing her hand and looking at her¨ I missed her so much.

I could understand her, but I really didn't know what to say.

I could hear your friends and the doctors calling her Park Ha Joon. ¨she said confused¨

Yes, that is her name. ¨I said¨ Park Ha Joon.

Oh... I see...But, I don't know if she told you, her real name is Kei. ¨she said¨

Kei? ¨I asked¨

Yes. She must have change it when she left... ¨she said and then stopped¨

She did not tell me. ¨I said¨

Did she tell you about her past? ¨she asked looking curious¨

No, she did not. ¨I said a bit scared¨

Well, after her father died we were not the happy family we used to be. I used to tell her that she killed him, when she didn't do such thing. I met Max a few years ago, but we lived a horrible life, she also tried to kill herself and Max tried to do that too to her. He always abused from us. But now... ¨she starts to tear up more¨ Look what he have done to her. This is all my fault. ¨she cries¨