ATL

Chapter seven

Brian

I have to tell her.

I can't wait any longer, neither can the truth.

It's not fair to her or to me.

I have to tell her why I left, why I did what I did and most importantly...

That I love her, I still do.

But,

I am not good for her.

I ruined her once, and I won't let that happen again.

I know, I am an idiot, I know I screwed things up, but I came back to tell her the truth.

Everything has changed, everything but her.

She consumed my every thought and she still does.

But now I need to prove to her, that I am worthy of her trust.

I just want to talk to her, share my stories, and be honest with her.

I want us to go back to being the old us.

She makes me feel something no one else can, and as selfish as this sounds, I am not ready to give up that feeling of happiness I get when I see her smile.

She deserve's so much more than just a coward who runs away from reality, but, I am willing to risk everything for her.

I know she probably doesn't feel the same way, but I can take rejection.

If it means that I can finally tell her truth, and we can go back to being us again.

If she wants to be friends I can take that too, as long as I get to speak to her and see her happy.

I pace around this bench overthinking each word I am about to say to her.

I have never been so nervous in my life.

This is it.

This is the moment of truth where I finally tell her why I kept her out of this nightmare that has become my life.

And then I see her, walking towards me.

I knew she would come, she would want to know why I chose to leave her, without any explanation.

"Hey there" I say looking into her brown eyes.

"Hi" she says looking away from mine.

You got to tell her Brian, can't run away any longer.

"So, umm I owe you an explanation" I say unsure of myself.

"I think you owe me much more than just that" She says rudely.

"I am sorry angel" I say, meaning every word.

"Just tell me what you wanted to and get it over with" She ignores my statement.

Here goes nothing.

"I left because-" I am cut off by my phone ringing.

Perfect timing, I roll my eyes and look at who's calling me.

Kiara.

I can't deal with her now so I choose to ignore it.

"Go ahead, take the call" She nods.

"It can wait" I say simply.

"Stuti I-" I don't know why I stopped.

"I umm" Ugh I am such an idiot.