Broken

Chapter 1

I experience a lot of pain and hardships in my life either in my family ,friends or boyfriend I know I need some time to relax and enjoy my life and get a hold of myself and stand up no matter what happened and think that all of it was worth it and God has a plan for me, but their will be time that you will get tired in fighting and holding on.

In my present life fighting is not my option anymore, holding on in their promises and pledges means being a stupid fighter and at the same time a soldier who fights and do some suicidal acts just to gain nothing from it.

I just need to get a hold of myself and stop over thinking in every little things and don't let my life get ruined. I am not that numb to feel nothing and also I'm not a masochist I am also a human being that has feelings and a person that can get hurt. On top of name means responsibilities and expectations and I'm tired of it.

I still love Mathhew my ex for almost a year and a month. What if I give him a chance to explain, what if he still has a feelings for me, what if he is just waiting for a perfect timing to confess and court me for the second time, what if we still have a chance, what if....

"Paris Madrid De la Merced hello are you even listening to what we are saying here?"

"Oh I'm sorry Gail I am just tired and sleepy so what is it again?"

Lie again I am not tired nor sleepy I am distracted and starting to build hope in me. What if's and such things

"God Maddie we were like talking for what 20 minutes infront of you and laughing out loud thinking that you are listening to what we are saying and for christ sake you are not tired and sleepy admit it you are distracted by something"

What do I expect they're not my beatfriends for nothing and wothout that talkative mouth of Cindy we will not be completed.

"No Cinds she is not distracted by something I think it's a someone am I right Maddie?"

Also the group will not be completed without the detective-like bestfriend of mine like Olivia.

"No Olivia I am just tired and sleepy really"

"Don't lie Maddie we are bestfriends right and we know you too well when you are lying"
Cindy really is a pain in my ass

"Can we just change our topic please I am just really tired and sleepy from last night also I didn't get a lot of sleep this past few days. Oh by the way where is Aly and Wayne?"

The group will also not be completed without that two crazy women Alyson my funny cousin and Wayne the girly of the group.

"Well Aly is on her way here and Wayne well she went to Sbarro to buy our orders." -Gail

" And if you're going to ask when did she arrive and why is it you didn't notice her? well you are sleepy and tired right ( note her sarcasm) and at the same time DISTRACTED in your own thoughts " -Cindy

She really is a talkative one and really did she just used that tone in me gahd she really is crazy.

"Cindz rea.."

I was cut off by an irritating shout

"Guyz!!!"

Sh*t seriously?!?!
Ghad Alyson's craziness is in different level is she really is my cousin?

"Alyy!!"
-Olivia and Cinds

Also I forgot about this two women infront of me they're really are crazy and I am thankful that Gail and Wayne is still decent.

"What took you so long?" Gail ask my crazy cousin

"Well my grandma went to her doctor and ask me to come with her first so I was late and I don't have a load that is why I cannot send a message"
-Aly

"Today's her scheduled check-up right?"
-Gail ask again

"Yes"

After Alyson answers Gail's question Olivia announce something that made me groan

"Hey Maddie since you are spacing out earlier you need to help Wayne in carrying our orders there's a lot of costumers and there are no available waiter at the moment.."I was going to protest but "no buts now go there and help her okay? "
Olivia

"okay, like I still have a choice right?(note the sarcasm)"

So just like what they say I'm on my way to Wayne to help her tsk they should always be ready if they will have a lot of costumers the management should be incharge haist.

To be continued...