You Lost Me (M.Shadows) [ON HOLD]

Chapter 1: The Tour

Jordan's POV

"Honey, hurry up!" I yelled from the downstairs, my suitcases next to me. 

We had a long drive from Los Angeles, California, to Denver, Colorado and we were already behind the schedule. We had to reach our first venue in less then nineteen hours and we were in LA, so probably we were gonna be in a traffic. 

"Jo, will you hurry the fuck up?" Eric shouted, opening the front door. 

"We're coming, we're coming!" I yelled back, running my hand through the hair. "Emile, hurry up, please!" I yelled once more and a sound of rushing feet reached my ears. He carefully climbed down the stairs, pulling his suitcase behind him. 

"I'm coming, I'm coming!" he rolled his eyes, flashing me a toothy grin afterwards. 

I grabbed my suitcases and followed Emile outside, locking the door behind me. Eric helped to put them in and all three of us climbed into the bus. The guys were already playing 'Call of Duty' and chilling. Eric started the bus and I sat next to him, onto the passenger's seat. 

It wasn't the first time, when I took Emile with me on the tour. He was used to me being away for months, but it hurt him as much as it hurt me. I just couldn't leave him. I loved him too much. So, I took him with me. And from that time, he always came along. It became his lifestyle, too. 

But my mind was preoccupied with one thing didn't left my mind after I'd learned who was coming on the 'Taste Of Chaos' tour this year. I will see him again. After three long years, I will have to face him once more. I didn't hate him. I despised him. 

I was too naive and felt for him. I thought, that he actually loved me. But he was like every other rockstar - pompous, cocky ass with a one-track mind. He only wanted me for sex. But I was so high over heels in love with him, that I didn't see through his mask. And I was the one who got burned. 

"Hey, Jo, you alright?" Eric asked, snapping me out of my thoughts. 

"Yeah, I'm fine." I gave him a small smile.

"You don't look too good. Maybe, you should rest. It's a long way anyways." 

I gave him a nod, and unfastened my seatbelt. I walked through the so called 'living room' passing the guys.

"I'm going to take a nap, babe." I kissed Emile's cheek. 

"Okay." he replied simply, not taking his eyes away from the TV screen, pressing the game console roughly. I rolled my eyes and entered the sleeping room, shutting the curtains behind me. I took off my 'Converse' and slipped into my bunk, leaving the curtains open. I closed my eyes and felt myself drifting into a deep sleep. 

*Flashback*

It was a chilly day in Vancouver. We arrived one day earlier into the city, so we had a whole day to ourselves. I put on my black winter coat and got into the elevator, pressing the Lobby button. 

The tour was about to end and it saddened me. We had to cancel a couple of our shows, because Devin managed to do something to his hand and couldn't play drums for a week. I really loved playing for those crazy kids. When they sing the lyrics with you, when they go absolutely mental, it does make you feel awesome. And as soon as lights comes down on the crowd, and you see all those smiling faces, you know why are you doing this and it pumps you up even more. 

The elevator stopped and I walked out, heading to the receptionist. 

"Can I help you, miss?" a rather young man asked me.

"Yeah, can I get a cab?" 

"Yes, of course." he said, grabbing the phone and dialing the number. "You taxi will be here in ten minutes." he said monotonically. I replied with a  'thanks' and left the building. 

The cold wind blew at my face constantly, as I stood outside the hotel, waiting for my cab. I grabbed a pack of cigarettes out of my pocket and took one out. 

"Fuck." I muttered, as I couldn't find the God damned lighter. 

"Here." a hand appeared with a lighter. I grabbed it and lighter up my cancer stick. 

"Thanks." I handed it back, looking up. I met a pair of hazel eyes looking at me, amusement in them. 

"How come pretty girl like you smoke?" he smirked, scooping a bit closer. I shook my head laughing. 

"What?" he looked at me a bit confused.

"I can't believe M. Shadows himself, is using these lame pick-up lines." I looked at him, a small smile playing on my lips. 

"Then, how 'bout dinner?" he asked bluntly, with the same smirk. 

"We'll see." I replied, throwing my cigarette onto the pavement and stomping on it. The cab pulled up and I got into it, taking a one last glance at him. He winked my way and I only rolled my eyes, with a smile. 

*End of Flashback*

I slowly opened my eyes and got out of the bunk, stumbling to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection and let out a deep sight. I was pale and I could see a traces of tears on my face. I turn the knob, letting the cold water run down from the tap. Splashing my face with the water and fixing my make up, I turned the water off, exciting the small bathroom.

I didn't want to be on this tour anymore, because I wasn't so sure, if I could face him after what he had done to me. 

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Ta-dam! The first chapter! It's kinda short, but another one should be a bit longer. 

So, since I have about six tests next week, I'll be studying my ass off. Which means, no updates for the whole five-six days. I'll probably update most of my stories on Sunday. 

Anyways, tell me what do you think! 

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