The Story Of Me

May 2016

Okay. This month has been a crazy month. Tons of things were going on, some good and some bad. I'm here to talk about both.

First off, Curtis was somewhat ignoring me. I know he was busy with all of his traveling but he could have at least texted to tell me he was busy. He has no idea how worried I get when he just stops texting me for a while. At this time, I thought he was cheating on me. He would never answer my calls or texts no matter what.

One good thing is I graduated from eighth grade. Along with graduating, I got the presidential award for outstanding academic excellence and a $500 scholarship for high school. I had an amazing graduation and my mom definitely took this as an opportunity to spoil me by taking me to get my hair done. At the after party, I had a great time and loved hanging out with all of my classmates and the parents.

After that, I was still being ignored and I knew his graduation was the next week. I text Curtis's mom who tells me that she would love for me to come so that I could meet the family. Now his mom is the sweetest person I know. She offered to give me a ride there and back home. So I just told her I would have my mom drop me off at the ceremony and when I came in, Curtis was there. As soon as he saw me, he looked mad that I had come. At the reception afterwards, he completely avoided me so I stayed close to his mom and dad. They then said that they could take me back home. We had to stop at their house along the way so they could change into comfortable clothes since I live almost an hour away. When we were in his house, he didn't invite me in any further than the living room where things got awkward. It was just me and his brother in the room and I have social anxiety a little. Then his dad was super nice and came into the room and started talking to me. His dad can be so funny at times. Then in the car, he wouldn't talk to me and when I hinted that I wanted to hold hands, he looked away. When we got to my house, he gave me a side hug that you would expect from a friend.

***It took a lot of courage to write this. The waterworks were flowing for like the twelfth time this week. I'm trying to see why Curtis has been treating me this way. Please help give me courage and wish me and Curtis both luck on making it through all of this.***