The Story Of Me

more rants

Ok so ever since curtis and me broke up, my life has been crazy. I feel like there is something missing from my life but I cant quit tell what it is yet. I think that I'm missing having a person who is there 24/7 to tell me that everything is ok no matter how hard things get. I have friends who I could talk to but they aren't always there. And when they are I just feel like I'm annoying them. I got told I care to much and now one of my friends won't talk to me all because I asked why he said he was having a bad week. What did I do to deserve this. Why did curtis break up with me in the first place. I had to have done something wrong but he won't tell me. I've spent the last week spending the whole day within a couple of feet from him and I want to ask him but every time I try I loose confidence. I hate this feeling of not knowing what I did and not having someone to text at night when I can sleep so they can tell me that it's ok and that i can go to sleep. Why is it that as soon as I become somewhat interested in a guy they do something that makes me almost hate them. I've been stuck inside for one day because of a terrible sunburn and I've had tons of time to think about all of this. I've come close to tears at least five times today.

Sorry for another rant but I am stressed and need to get it all out.