Freak (boyxboy)

Love?

"I think I'm falling in love with you, Rin.."

He looks over at me.

"I want to save you." I whisper.

He looks over at me.

"I want that too.."

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I walk into my house, quietly closing the door. I walk up to my room and think for a bit.

"It's the same one he used on himself.." Dillion hands me the blade.

"Why would he do that?" I ask.

"He knows it's the only way for a release." He looks at me. "I'm gonna be gone for a little while, but I want you to keep this between you and I."

I look at him and narrow my eyes. "Why exactly do you know this much about Rin?"

"Let's just say, he's opened up to me, as well as you.."

I look down. I guess this is the past he's not ready to reveal to me yet. I want him to open up to me. He needs someone to talk to, someone to hold him close. I feel like he only trusts me to do that. I seems like his Germaphobia isn't even the main problem of his, it's coping with everything else in his life.

I hear knocking at my door.

"Open up.." It's my dad. What does he want? I wonder.

I open my door. "Yeah?" I ask.

"Where have you been?" He sternly asks me. "It's midnight."

"I was at tutoring." I reply. "I have a test tomorrow, so I requested more tutoring today."

He narrows his eyes. "Well, tomorrow be back on time."

He walks away and goes into his room, with nothing else said. I sigh loudly. I don't know what he would do if he found out about me and Rin. He has always been a hard guy to follow, my dad. He's too, well, unexpecting.

I go into my room and pull out my laptop. I look up some different articles on self harm and sucidal thoughts. I read it.

Self harm is a form of relaxing your internal emotions. When you cut yourself, specifically people who are very troubled, it makes your internal pain external. So it feels non-existent. But it's only a temporary solution.

I keep reading more.

Signs of depression.

Mental disorders.

I start to get a little scared. Has he done all of this before? Then I find a news story, published a year ago about a double suicide attempt.

November 4, 2015.

Two teenagers found near death in their homes. The two had gotten large blades and run it up their arms, cutting major attires.

It was around midnight, on November 4th, Rin Nagisa and Dillion Hayz attempted their double-suicide. Police say, that it was Hayz that had done it first and then Rin. The two are unconscious, and are being taken into hospital custody. They are in critical condition, and are heading into immediate surgery.

My eyes widen. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I understand why he doesn't want to open up. His depression runs deeper then I ever realized.

"Fuck.." I whisper.

He is in serious pain. And he's starting to do it again. I want him to open up to me, I want to understand more. Like why he even tried to to it. And why Dillion is still here, bringing back his memories.

I don't care what he's been through in the past, all I know is that I need to be his savior because..

I love him.

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Hello! Thanks for all of your reads and I hope your enjoying my story so far. Now I just want to am warn you prematurely that there will be, well, mor mature content later on in the book. I want you guys to know that before I publish that part. But for now here is some sad shit for you all to deal with ;)