little tulip -mgc

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She was on hights, completely unreachable and always with dense cloud of smoke around her.

So what coud such an eternal loser like me possibly do?
I could just stare.

She had her faithful pets around her,attention and drugs.
At those days, she was only opiate i consumed.
She got into my life and thoughts as easily as she would light a cigar on school corridor, completely reckless and unscrupulous.

And I hated that fact.

I remember that I begun to smoke only if i can ask her for a lighter.

What a stupid,pathetic kid.

I remember how happy i was when i was honored with a little bit of her attention for the first time.

"Can I borrow a cigarette?" she asked.

And that was beggining of my ruination.

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