Uncovering Spencer | p.o.s.

six

it was last period

chemistry class

i felt hollow

i was hollow

until you walked in.

stupid sweater and all

with your thick-rimmed glasses

and faded jeans

and you sat beside me.

i could tell you,

you looked happy

and i would know that

because it was something

i no longer remember

f e e l i n g .

you turned sideways

looked at me like i was

something interesting

which made me feel

something different

one I've never felt before

but then you ruined everything

when you said,

"you're that lesbian girl, right?"

and everything came crashing down.

i wanted to vomit

i wanted to get out

everything felt suffocating

but instead,

i swallowed back a sob

and replied,

"yeah, that's me."

afterwards,

i cried at home

and my parents

didn't know why.