I didn't expect this - Joshifer

Chapter 8

Josh's p.o.v

Jen smiles and closes the door, I said I love you but she didn't said anything back. Do I smell bad or did I say something wrong. I don't think so. Ugh I wanted to kiss her so bad and long and give all my love to her but she didn't want to. I don't know what's wrong with her or did I do something stupid.

I turn the tv off and go to bed because we have to shoot tomorrow. I lay in bed and think off Jen and only Jen. She means so much to me. I think of the things we did together before we said I love you to each other. Maybe it's better that we don't take this relationship that we have to another level or something. Maybe it's better to be friends and laugh but the butterflies will still be there and that's never going to change.

What if Jen doesn't love me like that and I will never have a relationship with her. How will my life look like when I'm not with the love of my life. I have to tell her again how I feel because I can't live without her.

I feel my eyes getting heavier and that's when sleep takes over.

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My alarm goes off and the only thing on my mind is still Jen and I still think about last night. But today is a fresh day and I am not going to talk about last night to Jen. Maybe I'll tell Sam but I dunno..

I take a quick shower and put on some clothes. I take my phone and put it in my pocket. I close the door. I want to knock on Jen's door but my head says no so I walk to the elevator. Before the doors close I see a foot that is between the door and the wall. The door opens and my heart beats ten times faster. It's Jen, of course it's Jen.

"Goodmorning Joshy ! " she says like nothing happens last night. "Well you are in a good mood! Goodmorning to you to *cough* beauty *cough*" I say. "What did you say there?" "I said; goodmorning to you to *cough* beauty *cough*"I say again. And I begin to laugh. She begins to tickle my waist. "Jen stop it." I almost scream. "No Josh! Not until you say what you said." She said. "OK STOP, I'll say it." I laugh. "I said: beauty." And with that she says nothing.

We walk out of the elevator and go to the car. We sit in the back seats and we say nothing to each other. The only thing that I am thinking about is what I said. How could I say that.. I thought she didn't hear it because of my cough.

She looks at me, I feel her eyes burning in the back of my head so I turn my head to her. She smiles and I turn my head back to the window.

We arrived on set and we walk to our trailers. I put my 'peeta' clothes on and I'm ready to shoot.

Sam walks in. "Hey Josh how are you? Ready for today?" he says. "Yes, but I have to tell you something, something weird happened last night." "Tell me, I am all ears." He says. I tell him the story about last night and that Jen gave me a quick and that I said I loved her but she didn't aid anything back. "Man, that sucks." Sam says. "Yes it does because.. because I do love her." I say while staring at my shoes. "What are you waiting for? I know she loves you! Go for it man." Sam says. And with that I'm running towards Jen's trailer.

Before I knock I take a deep breath. I knock twice and Jen opens the door. "Ow hey Josh." She says. "Hey can we talk?" "Yeah sure." She walks out of her trailer and we go to the back of the trailer outside. Nobody can hear us or see us so we have some privacy.

"Jen I promised myself to not talk about this but I have to because I feel terrible." I say. Jennifer looks concerned but nods. "Jennifer, last night.. " I hear Jen sigh. "I don't want to walk about this Josh." "No Jen please listen." She nods.

"Last night we had so much fun and I then we went to my room and then you were gone. I said I love you and I really wanted to give all my love to you but you didn't want to. I laid in bed and the only thing that was on my mind was you Jen, it's always you Jen and it's never been different. Because I have loved you since the beginning." And with that said Jen crashes her lips on mine. My eyes opened but then I close them letting all my love out to Jen.

Her hands go around my neck and I put one hand on her hip and the other on her lower back. We kiss passionately and I turn her around and put her gently against the wall from the trailer. She throws her legs around my torso and I put my hands under her ass the give her some support. We kiss like if never kissed someone before.

I feel my boner coming up. Wow Jen makes me horny as fuck. I put her down and I pull away from the kiss. Her cheeks are red and mine are to. I look down and my cheeks are burning red. Jen looks down to and laughs. "Jen that's not funny! You are hot as fuck." I say "Aw Joshy, so you think my panties aren't wet ?" she laughs. I laugh to.

"But Josh I didn't know that you loved me this much, and I am sorry about last night I was insecure and I didn't wanted to hurt you!" she says. I give her a kiss and put my forehead against hers. "Don't be sorry you didn't hurt me and I love you." "I love you to" and with that we go on set and shoot some scenes.