Runaways

Chapter Five

Okay maybe "worst mistake" might've been an exaggeration, but still, i deeply regret picking up the phone. "Hello?" "You motherfu.." "And hello to you too!" I couldn't tell if Ari was very upset or so unbelievably pissed off, but either way if she were to receive my head on plate as a gift, she would be over come with joy. " put Katelynn on the phone!" "Ehm, no" "Ryder i swear" " how'd you get this number anyway?" " i have my ways, Katelynn.Phone. Now." " i said no" "Ryder!!" "I'm sorry the number you have reached has been disconnected, please try again or call 1-800leavemethefuckalone for more options." I hung up almost immediately. "Who was that?" "Telemarketers" i had almost forgot about that kiss with that whole phone conversation with Ari, but afterwards, there are literally no words to describe the awkwardness . We stared at each other for at least ten minutes in nothing but awkward silence until finally she said "We could um,share the bed if you want." "Um yeah sure" we just stood in silence again, no one said a word. It was killing me. Not in the depressing way, i just hated silence. "So um I'm gonna go to bed" "okay yeah, I'll be back, I'm gonna um, go to the store real quick" "Ryder?" " yeah?" "Get me ice cream" " will do"

I got out of there as fast as i could. I popped in my music, and just walked. And walked and walked. I walked to the point to i literally had no idea where the hell i was, and then i walked some more. It wasn't until Hold On Till May came on that i realized that i had been thinking about Katelynn this entire time,(for some reason Pierce The Veil reminds me of Katelynn) and i began to think about that kiss, that goddamn kiss, i hated myself for kissing her, but then i remembered I didn't kiss her, she kissed me. Which made me feel a little better, but confused the ever living hell out of me. Why did she kiss me? It couldn't have meant anything, unless it did, maybe i was wrong, maybe she does love me, or maybe it was just a heat of the moment kind of thing, I'm over thinking this, unless I'm not, i mean i just freaking kissed Katelynn. No I didn't. She kissed Me.

My phone started to ring again. I found it surprising considering i had gotten me and Katelynn these flip pay-by-the-minute phones after we got seriously lost on the way to Wisconsin. The only person i had given the number to was James. I didn't think he'd be dumb enough to give it to anyone, but then again, Ari always gets her way. "Do you have a death wish or something?" "seriously how the hell did you get this number??" "Again i have my ways. Put Katelynn on the phone. Now." " " i'm not with her at the moment. You got it from James didn't you?" "Ryder, what the fuck do you mean your not with her?" " i mean i went out to buy something" "it best not be some kind of protection" "what?" "I heard what James said!" "Ari, i swear me and Katelynn are not having sex." " good, i will fucking kill you Ryder Hayes if you are lying." "I'm not, i'm only getting her ice cream." "So why didn't you bring her with you?" "Because she went to bed" "so you left Katelynn alone, in a motel room, asleep." "Yes, what's the big deal" "what's the big deal?? Someone could break in! What if she ge ts raped, or killed, or, or," "Ari we are staying in Motel, in which i'm pretty sure we are the only ones staying in, in the middle of the woods, in Wisconsin. Wis-con-sin. Its one of the most boring states ever, when do you ever hear anything remotely interesting happening in Wisconsin?" "You know being so in love with Katelynn id imagine you'd be freaking out at the very idea of her being alone" "......how'd you know that" "it's obvious dumbass" "fair enough, but i'm not that far, and if she needs me she can call through the room phone." "I assume this 'room' has two beds right?" "So i'm gonna go" "Ryder i swear" " relax i'm sleeping on the floor, well i mean i was going to, she said i could sleep with her" "..what, she said, you said she, you two are gonna, sleep with her, together?" "......no...." "But you just said" "bye!"

Okay so i have a bad habit of not knowing when to shut up, and that's when things like telling Ari stuff that will get me killed happen. Telling her that me and Katelynn are sleeping together was probably not the best idea, and realizing how that sounds out of context makes me realize how Ari heard it. If i ever see her again, she is so gonna kill me. I fear she already has my murder weapon picked out. I find it funny though because i'll accidentally tell people things i shouldn't but the one person i'm supposed to tell everything to, is the person i hide the most from. It's not that i don't tell her anything, i mean i do tell her everything, but i don't. I know, i'm confusing, i don't even understand myself.

Katelynn was asleep when i got back, or at least i thought she was. I sat down beside the bed and began to draw. God she is so fucking beautiful, before i knew it i was drawing her. I made sure to get every detail from the smallest hair on her head to her last toe. I tried to be quiet, each time i erased or started over i would go into the bathroom, and then continue. I stopped for a minute and just stared at her for awhile. She never failed to give me new reasons to love her. Each day i was finding myself falling more and more in love with her, with more and more reasons to love her, which meant more reasons to continue feeling this way and to never stop. " ya know you're never gonna finish that drawing of me if you keep stoping to stare." " i'm just trying to capture everything perfectly, how did you.." I looked over and found one of the rejects un-crumpled up beside her. " lucky guess." She responded. Sorry to annoy you by saying this for hundredth time but god i love her. " i thought you were sleeping." " who can sleep at such an hour," she sat up and continued her philosophy as i just stared at her like a little child "see i believe nights are not meant to be spent sleeping, at such hours most people spend them thinking,sed hours are meant for thoughts to roam freely, so you see my dear friend Ryder i was not sleeping but deep in thought." " but what about those who stay up all night?" "those are the people who cannot handle their own thoughts, it's too much for them to bare, therefore they become night owls." She gave me a smirk then lied down again. "Night Ryder" "love you" "love you too" i had finished the drawing, so i joined her. I positioned myself on the opposite side of the bed, and began to think, there was still another hour till morning, and i had a subject in mind.