~One Hope~ *One Direction Fanfic*

-Chapter 9-

~AN~ Well it's been a really long time since i've updated!! I am so sorry for the wait! Not sure how long this chapter is going to be I just need to update!

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-Carly's POV-

Beep...Beep...Beep...Beep

The faint sound of monitor rang loudly in my ears. My head was pounding and my eyes felt like weights that I just couldn't lift. I felt dizzy, like my world had flipped upside down and left me hanging. I didn't really know what happened actually, I just remember being really tired and feeling nausea. I didn't really know where I was either, it seemed quiet, other than the beeping ringing through my ears causing an intense throbbing to my head, but it was too quiet in the room around me. My eyes shot open at the realization of where I was, my eyes were still droopy and I could just barely keep them open. I felt weak, I felt numb, and I felt confused. I slowly turned my head to look by my bedside, my eyes shuttered as I seen a fragile Harry, sitting against the wall, hugging his knees, looking down. It looked like he had fallen asleep, possibly from crying. I opened my mouth as if I was going to say something but the words got caught in my throat and all that came out was "Har--?" Almost immediately after I (attempted to) speak Harry lifted his head. He looked horrible, his curly hair was everywhere, it looked like he had been running his hands through it. His eyes were puffy from crying and had dark circles around them. Where were the other boys? What happened and why was Harry crying? These are all the questions running through my mind causing even more pain and stress on me.

-Harry's POV-

Last Night Before Incident...

She looked adorable sleeping on Liam's lap, I admit. But it hurts ya know? Watching the one you have feelings for falling in love with someone else. Yeah, it does hurt. My heart feels like a piece of paper that gets ripped into shreds over and over again.  But what I think hurts the most is that I can't do anything about it. Not a single thing.

Carly and Liam were asleep on the couch, Zayn, Louis, and Niall had went to their bunks and fallen asleep.  I was the only one awake.  It has been hard for me to sleep lately, sometimes I'm not even sure why.  It was storming pretty hard and you could see almost nothing out the windows. I jerk back as I feel the bus start gliding across the road. The roads are almost flooded.  The next thing I see is really bright headlights speeding towards our bus.

Present time, In hospital...

 I couldn't move.  I was sat up against the wall in Carly's hospital room.  Room number 412.  My eyes were fixated on her.  No matter how hard I tried I couldn't even blink, if I managed to blink all I would see is Carly and the boys flying into the air as we smashed into that semi.  That is the last thing I remember though, before hitting my head through the window and passing out.  How did I manage to not get as hurt though?  I had a minor head injury, many cuts and bruises all over and was having severe headaches while the other boys had a many broken bones and many cuts, scratches and bruises.  As for Carly though, she was completely worse than all of us,and I feel somewhat to blame.  I feel quite dumb actually, letting Liam have her stay with us, but, I also feel.. hurt, hurt that she didn't tell us what she has been going through.  Did Liam know?  Did any of the boys know?  Am I the first to find out?  Was she trying to hide it from us and why?  I have no clue.  Was I ever going to find out?  Well I don't know to be honest, her life is on the line right now. She has cancer.  Cancer.  And she didn't tell us.  Us? what am I even talking about now.  She likes Liam, not me, Liam.  

I had evetually cried myself to sleep, but hey at least I managed to actually get some sleep though.  It wasn't peaceful, but it was sleep.  It's like the whole night was on replay in my head, repeating every little fatal memory.  

When I woke up I felt stiff, I hadn't moved since I was released from getting checked when we were first rushed in her.  It was 9am now.  I lifted my head to look up at Carly, only to find her looking right back at me.  Her face was bruised, but her bright blue eyes didn't fail to sparkle in the light.  She tried to speak but nothing came out.  I rushed (crawled) over to her bedside, I could'nt even stand up I just wanted to get beside her and make sure she was okay.  She was alive and that's all that  mattered to me.

We couldn't pull our gazes away from eachother.  She looked terrible.  I looked terrible.  Finally I cleared my throat and was able to speak.

-Carly's POV-

"Are you okay?"

"Oh my gosh this is all my fault"

"Please Carly, forgive me"

"Harr...."

"Carly I'm so sorry"

"I can't believe this happened"

"Har.."

"Why didn't you tell me?!"   Tears began swelling in Harry's eyes.

"HARRY! " I shouted.

He finally shut up.

"Harry" my head was punding from yelling. "What happened?"

He looked at me like I was stupid for not knowing, or for not yelling at him again.

"WewereinacaraccidentandIdidntevenwakeyouguysupbecauseIwastoobusyworryingaboutmyownthoughtsanditsmyfaultthatyouallarehurt."

I stared at him. He talked so fast I could barely understand him and his words were all mumbled together.  "Harry.."

His face was burried in his hands. "You hate me don't you?"

"No Harry I don't hate you!  None of this is your fault."

"Why didn't you tell anyone Carly"

Alright.  Now I'm confused.

 "What?" I asked confusingly 

"That you have cancer.."

After he said that everything clicked in my mind.  I was lost of words and didn't know what to say.

~A/N~ Okay so it isn't the longest chapter, but hey! At least I updated! I haven't updated since April. Oh. My. Gosh.  Anyways I hope you liked it. It took awhile to make it as perfect as I could but I really needed to update!

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