Goodbye.

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by nobodythinks

by nobodythinks

EXTREME TRIGGER!!!!

Dear Danny,
If you're reading this, it's too late. I'm sending you all the letters that I wrote. This is my final Goodbye, Danny-boy. Dan, please know, this wasn't your fault. You couldn't have stopped it. I'm worthless, I mess everything up, and honestly, I don't know why you stuck with me in the first place, but you did.

For that, Dan, I am eternally grateful. Thank you for staying with me in the little time we had together. You don't know it, but when I saved you Dan, back in 2009, you saved me. I was falling into a deep depression, and you saved me, Without even trying.

I love you Dan. I always have. Please hold on for me, okay? If you're sad, (which I don't know why you would be) be stronger than me Dan. You always were. Now I guess, you always will be. Live your life Dan. Live it like you should have without me in the way.

Goodbye,
I love you forever,
Phil.

Dan read the last words on the text. What does this- no. Nonononono.
Did he? Dan put his phone in his pocket and quickly got a cab. He read over the message again. This is my final goodbye, Danny-boy. Did that mean he- no, he couldn't! Phil had always been his little sunshine, full of smiles. He couldn't have tried to-
No. Dan wouldn't let himself say it. He would get home. Phil would be fine. Or at least, he hoped.

Phil POV (right after text)

Phil walked into Dan's room. He was going to do it. He was going to end it all, right here. He was using Dan's old sleeping pills and the razor. He wouldn't mess this up, like everything else. He undid the top and took all of them. Then he took the razor, and he pressed it to his skin.
AN: I'm not going to be very descriptive, because I don't want to make this to graphic. So yeah. He cut his arms.

Phil laid down on Dan's bed. It still smelt like him. Phil felt tears rolling down his face. Dan, who never came back. Dan, who he loved more than anything. Dan, who didn't love him back. Phil closed his eyes.
Dan.

AUTHOR NOTE-
Sorry.