Recovering From The past

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Heyyyy....Sorry  for going ghost .

Latisha

All i could think of was, AIDS, HIV, as i was running to the Good Samaritans hospital.I continuously stopped to catch my breath.Realizing that i wasn't going far...At all.

Is this  a symptom of AIDS?

Did i really contract this disease?!....Its all my  mothers fault!...No, its mine.I allowed her and i engaged in the act of prostitution.

I decided to catch a cab.

"Good Samaritans Hospital"...I said catching my breath, as i reached out giving him a  $20 bill.

"Youre a very beautiful girl....You look quite familiar"...He said, seductively looking at me, unsure trying deeply to remember me.

"No sir, I dont believe we've met......Im a  foreigner" I lied, nervously. I lied because i did  know who he was....He was a pimp. As he was driving, I hesitated, telling him.."Drop me off here". What a wonder, he did just that.

-Good Samaritans-

Getting into the hospital, i didn't know what to expect.My heart was racing.." A  nurse, most likely of the Philippine race walked towards me....

 "Latisha correct?

"Yes", I nodded 

"Come right this way"......I followed her instructions,I checked my phone just to see 17 missed calls, and 34 text messages....All from Chris.I wouldn't know what to tell him.....HIV would ruin all my  opportunities  with him.I didn't bother texting back.

-Latisha takes a blood test-

I was in the waiting room, waiting for the results, nervously.My palms were sweaty, my heart was beating.As i was curling my hair with my fingers, they strolled my mother in.She was in tears.For the first time...

"LA-TI-TI-SH-SH-Aa"

"This is all on you!"...

" How dare you talk to me like that....I am your MOTHER. Dont you see im suffering, suffering from AIDS?!"

"How are you gonna call yourself my mother?! You allowed me to be raped....How many times?Answer that?I could possibly be suffering from HIV too, and its all on you!If you didn't allow all this to happen to me so many times , i wouldn't be at risk for none of this. I'm tired of you trynna play victim.Know your role.....Be the "mother" that you claim to be."

Right then, the nurse came in asking for me.

"We will be seeing you now", She said with a  genuine smile.....My hands were trembling...I was pissed off, but nervous at the  same time. On my  way there i made a small prayer

She admitted me to the doctors office.

"So, good news, bad news.Based on how you see it"

"You dont have HIV, You do have a viral infection,Which you'll be given antibiotics for and it will all be cleared in 2 to 3 days".He nodded smiling.....So at that point i was truly at peace.

"Thank you so much!"

He gave me my prescription  drugs, and I left his office, with the full intention to leave.My  mother was outside, surrounded by a bunch of  guards.

"So are you proud of yoself?! You got it right lil bitch?! I told you, you aint nothing but a prostitute, and you aint never gon' be shit!Prostitute!..."

I stared at her with pity, but i  left her with a smile, decided to be the bigger person and left.

-OUT OF  THE HOSPITAL-