Our Love: Shawn and Camila

Chapter 17: Writing Waves

SEVENTEEN

Shawn

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"I don't think we can do this anymore,"

"What why not?" I ask, confused at Lily's comment.

"You love Camila to much and it shows," I protest.

"Think about me! I'm your fake girlfriend and I'm getting loads of hate and no-one likes me now. Plus you just beat-up your best friend on the red carpet after he made out with Camila, who everyone ships you with. Our relationship is unbelievable and no-one thinks that we're actually going out!" I believe her but I don't think that we could do break-up.

"We've only been a 'couple' for a few weeks. Three to be precise," this would ruin my career if they knew that we'd only been together for a few weeks and they were fake weeks.

"What about Jenny?" I ask, hopefully touching a nerve.

"What about Jenny?"

"I could ask her to be my girlfriend,"

"I don't give anything right now. Go ask her, but I must warn you that my sister don't like being toyed with and it might just slip that you're using her. I don't know if that were to happen or not. Your choice," she threatened me.

"How about we break-up and I announce it with a song,"

"OK, but make it seem like you're in a bad light not me,"

"That would make me even more famous, and I could tell Jenny that the song's about me and well rub it in her face," she added, nodding in approval.

I quickly got to work with my beautiful guitar and strummed at the strings. This time, everything was so hard to write and to let my stress out, I went to the gym in my hotel room. I was lifting 30kg weights as a warm-up, but I couldn't lift them as I was thinking about my gorgeous Camila. Suddenly, an idea struck me and I knew exactly what was going to be the message of my song - lifting the weight of heartbreak.

I want to go back,
Forget that it's over
Painted in black,
When you left me alone
I never knew, she was sleeping next door
With the kid I grew up with,
And I can't go back to her anymore, no more
You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight
Put you in the past,
Try to forget you 'cause it's over
And every time you ask
I pretend I'm okay
You're inside my head
In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you,
And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah
You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time, but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight
You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you push me away
And then you try to take me back
Say someday you will change, but I don't wanna wait

Inside my head, I was dedicating this song to Camila, not because she cheated on me, but because there is another meaning to the song. Yes it is a heartbreak song but it's also a song about reflecting on your relationship and making mistakes, yet wanting them back so much. I loved this song.

I loved it so much that I thought that it could be ready for Andrew, my manager, to hear.

"Hello Andrew,"

"Shawn, yes. Do you have a new song?"

"I do. It's called The Weight,"

"Can you play it for me? I know that the reception isn't great but I wanna hear it, especially since your fans want new music and the newer the better," I started playing it (play the video).

"Wow Shawn, you outdid yourself today! You're fans are gonna love it!" if Andrew liked it, then everyone would like it! I was ecstatic with myself for getting this right.

"You should announce it after we've conformed with Ireland Records and have it recorded in a studio. We could probably get you in for one tomorrow. Yes, Tracy, my secretary, says that she's booked us one already. See you at the new one downtown, OK? Good, bye," Andrew always speaks really quickly and sometimes it's hard to tell what he's saying but I did and was happy with what was gong to happen.

I just hope that Camila will take me back. She had to. I needed her.