Kill It With Skillet

Here We Go Again

"L...La....Lacey. I...I don't like this."

"This will past. You'll look back on this years from now and be thankful that you didn't do anything. You're stronger than you think. Madison I hate the fact that this happens to you. It sickens me to death. It's sad and not fair. I'm sorry that you have to deal with this."

No she's not. Don't believe her. She's so happy that you deal with this. She's happy you get bullied and wishes you would just kill yourself alright. Do it b****

I looked up to see Lacey smiling at me. At that same moment, I looked out the window and realized that we never left the parking lot and that Jen and Korey were heading over to where Lacey and I are. I also realized thaaaaat I was crying.

Look at who looks pathetic. You can't even go a day without crying. How stupid. If I were you, I would find another blade and get this over with.

Lacey got up to let Jen and Korey in. As they were walking in, Lacey whispered something to them. Most likely about what just happened with Belle and the blade. Jen came over and just hugged me.

"Madison I am so sorry that this happened. You are stronger than this. Remember that. Remember that Belle doesn't matter. All that matters is you and your health. Please don't give up just yet. Just keep trying. Remember that you now have 5 people who genuinely care about you. Now, you and Lacey should go and have fun now with whatever you were going to do. Chin up princess, your tiara is falling." Jen whispered in my ear.

I smile a little at that comment. I'm so thankful to have them in my life right now. Without them I don't think I'd be alive. Oh so you mean like it should. You should be dead, you shouldn't be alive. If only you would've listened to me like you should've. Idiot.

Korey came over next and gave me a hug and told me to stay strong.

"Korey and I are going to head back in to check on the boys and get ready for the concert. Go and have fun guys. Text us if you need anything. I mean it." Jen tells us as her and korey walk out of the bus.

"You ready Madison?" I get asked.

"I think so. Let's go and just have fun!" I reply to Lacey.

Off we went to Starbucks. No one else was there so it was nice. We talked about so much and really connected. Lacey is so incredible. I'm honored to have gotten the chance to meet and hang out with her.

We head back to the venue just in time for the concert. Throughout the whole concert, Lacey didn't leave my side. During The Last Night, Lacey held me tight. As normal, through the song I was crying. That song means so incredibly much to me. Lacey hugged me as she saw me cry.

"Remember this night. Remember what that meaning of the song is. Remember that God is always with you no matter the time or the reason. He's always there. If you need anything, He is there with you." Lacey whispered into my ear towards the end of the song.

After the concert and the meet and greets, Lacey and I catch up with John, Seth, Jen, and Korey. I love seeing them all dressed up in their concert gear. They look amazing. If only I could look like them.

"Hey guys! We were planning on going out to eat because we're all hungry, would you guys like to join us?" Seth asked us.

We head over to the bus to head out. John and Seth are sitting at one end of the bus and Lacye, Korey, Jen, and I are on the other. The guys were talking about guitars of course. Meanwhile...

"Madison, why did you let the bullying get so bad?" Lacey asked me.

"There is quite literally nothing that I can do it about. Well specifically Belle. Her dad is the principal and her mom is the sheriff. Plus my parents love Belle, they always wish that she was their daughter instead of me. Not like they even realize I'm still here ya know?" 

"Before we get more into this, Madison, where would you like to eat?" Korey asked me.

I simply nodded my head. I don't feel like eating. Good. It's not like you should be eating anyway. As it is your so fat.

"Are you hungry or anything girlie?" Jen asked.

I just simply shook my head no.

"Hmm lets go talk in the back." Jen said as she grabbed my arm.

"Jen, I..."