Pretend you're ok

Phan

Dan was in high school and so was Phil. They were in art class, Dan hasn't been himself for a while, Phil counted, he's been like this since 6th grade. Phil didn't understand why. He's been worried about Dan a lot, for all the times Dan asked Phil about spending the night at his house, it sounded kind of suspicious. The way he would nag Phil, he'd start to tear, that's when Phil would agree, not that he would ever disagree to Dan sleeping over at his house. Phil always felt comfortable and cozy when Dan was there by his side. Dan would hug as they slept, he would drool onto phil's back, there's one thing Phil was worried about. He would always hear Dan word out in his sleep "I hate you two". He was always confused but let it slide. In art class, they would always get told instructions of what to draw, but today they got to draw what explains their life in one piece.
Phil was excited, he wanted to draw his family on the bottom and there would be a speech bubble saying, we love you Phil. But on the top he wanted to draw him and Dan holding hands, a heart around them, with bubbles, inside those bubbles it would say. "Since you entered my life, I've never been happier, I love you so much." He began to sketch out the centre, then the top, then the bottom, he picked he colours he needed and began to draw.

Dan on the other hand needed to express the negativity and positivity in his life. Whilst obviously Phil was the positive, his parents on the other hand were the negative. Dan never smiled unless he was with Phil, but now he wasn't smiling at all. He would put two sides. One would have both his parents hitting him, saying bad things to him and disrespecting saying they wish he never existed, that they had to deal with him and he wasn't worth it. He'd draw himself crying, a normal thing he did. The other side would have Phil lending a hand, smiling saying "you're ok" and "I love you" hearts surrounding phil's head.

" this is going to be so good, hey Dan what do you- " Phil was cut off as he looked up from his painting and saw Dan frowning, looking so empty and depressed. All he was focusing on was his painting, he needed it to be perfect. He wanted this painting to show how he feels everyday simultaneously. He was wondering if he would show it to Phil. "Dan.. You okay?" Phil said as he put his paint brush down after he was done. Dan didn't hear him, he was thinking too much. He blocked out everyone. "Dan.." Finally Dan looked up after he finished his piece. "Huh?" Phil chuckled but Dan stayed silent and still. "Are you ok?" Phil stood up and Dan nodded looking down at his paint brush smeared in black paint. "Do you mind if I look at your painting?" Phil asked and Dan shook his head. " I'll show you when I'm ready for you to know." He said as he covered the piece with a white cloth towel they kept in the art room. "What do you mean when I'm ready for you to know, Dan it's ok you can tell me anything." Dan felt phil's hand on his shoulder. " well, it kinda says something, er in.. The drawing and I uh need you to know when I'm ready." Phil just nodded. He then smiled as Dan turned to him. "Can I see yours?" Dan asked and Phil replied with a simple yes.

Phil grabbed his piece and flipped it. Facing Dan. He saw the drawing at the top, him and Phil holding hands. "Ever since you came into my life, I've never been happier, I love you so much"

"Phil.." Dan said and looked at Phil as he smiled. "Yah?" Phil replied excited for what he was about to say. "I love you too, now come here you artist." Phil chuckled while Dan grabbed his into a soft and warm hug, Phil always enjoyed. But it didn't feel right, something was off? They pulled away from the hug and Phil quickly cut Dan off before he was about to say something. "Hey Dan!" Dan chuckled at phil's enthusiasm. "Yes Phil." Dan replied. "Do you want to sleep over at my house for the week? We have a weeks vacation so why not spend it at my house? You always ask me to spend the night, now I'm asking you, so what do you say?" Phil lowered his voice as he saw dans eyes tear. "D-did I do something wrong?" Phil asked but Dan smiled as tears ran down his face. "No.. Thank you so much." He hugged him again and Phil again was confused but decided to hug back.