Short Stories Of Depression

Cruel World

As i sit on the cold hard floor watching the blood drip from my fingertips.*in my mind im thinking* "i realize the world has changed its nothing but a cruelworld now people are left with gashes in their skin scars on their bodies and memories that are flushed down a drain does anyone Seem to care anymore the pain were in seems to get more and more powerful and hurt even more the only thing people wanna do is go out get drunk, have sex, kill others and for what so they can feel powerful or for payback its nothing but a heartless known country and i could careless what happens now because here lately all you see on the news is so and so killed this person so and so was beaten and shot by their spouses its a never ending battle and we're left to pick up the pieces cause we're the next generation or so they say i'm tired of waking up every morning wondering what life will bring am i gonna die today? am i gonna have a good day or bad day? i never know whats gonna happen."*then i come to* I realize that i'm bleeding and i remember that i'm sitting on the floor my face is wet my eyes are puffy from crying the pain is getting to much to handle and people say if my depression is so bad that i should get help I'VE FUCKING TRIED TO GET HELP THEY PUT ME ON MEDICATION THAT DIDNT EVEN WORK AND THE SHRINKS DONT HELP THEY JUST MAKE IT WORSE. I get up clean myself off walk to my room lay on my bed and think *I go back in my mind and start thinking again* "Am i really worth all this does anyone ever truly honestly care about anyone through the screams, the pain, the crying, the depression, the hurt, feeling broken, used, useless, unloved, and not even cared about. Does anyone else see it or is it just me that feels the pain this world is suffering from yes i may have a good heart and sometimes i hate it because i get to close to people and i always get hurt or i cant tell people how i truly feel because my hearts to sensitive it would hurt me more than it would hurt them but who cares right i'm just another human being they can toss around from friend to friend they don't care how i feel my emotions get played and my trust gets used i'm left to myself and i feel like i've been abandoned and abused by the ones who i care about most but do they even care about me. God i'm praying to you if your listening please help me please take my hand and guide me to where i'm supposed to be headed i feel lost and i need your help please show me the rode i'm meant to take God i love you Amen" *i'm awake again and i see the blood running down the sides of my wrist and i start crying again* "God please im asking for you helping hand please save me and help me this world and this pain is just to much for me i want it to end i want the world to be better again these past three years have been nothing but a nightmare a never ending nightmare please i just want it to end and i want the pain to stop"Sincerely, A Very Broken Teenage Girl