Ok fine....i cant believe that my friends hate me so much....I dont even have friends....and if I hear the complain about me, im fucking pissed....My friends, no not even friends, ignore me now. They are now so rude to me, I tried to help them, so if they would change. Something in their minds made them hate me. I used to be in a club, and 1 mistake happened, now they tell me im stupid and i cant be with them anymore. My friends were helping me, until one person on the fucking internet got to me...they said my only friend was annoyed, complains about me....Im in tears right now writing this, because in my world I need friends to hold me up...and now I have nothing...nothing to hold me back from killing myself, hating myself, hating others. I wish I never lived because irl, my best friend for ever, wich i have been with forever....hates me...and I hope that the people that hate me are more than fucking happy now that they made my life fall apart. I know that maybe one person out there would help me...but are afraid of being hated too. I have my family, but we fight way to much, I have school, but its fucked up, my only person to help me is my counsler, I try to talk to her, every day, because my life is so fucked. My parents, family, friends, dont know this because I havent told them.
I have alot of secrets, and I told one person all of it.
My best friend, my best friend that held me, cared for me, damn, we were together so much that they thought we were a couple.
I miss my friends, and im getting bullied by people on the internet. Theres people at school that hurt me, not with my body, but my universe. My little universe has been broken. Now its just a place full of horrible thoughts, horrible creatures. I only appear happy because I hate being the center of attention because I have way flaws.
I know I may not be perfect
I know I may be horrible
I know I am broken
But I know I still need friends...
