life of a troubled girl

Her decision

Kenya P.O.V
After trey left I fall to the ground and cry he was right I don't know where my daughter is she hasn't been here for months and I haven't tried to find but the truth is I don't hate my daughter I really do deep down love her I just can't look at her because she reminded me so much of her father when he was taken away it was the worst day of my life because I was the reason he got taken, I was out with an old friend from school and he was my bestfriend back in high school so we started hanging out but only as friends one night he called me crying and I didn't know what was wrong I offered to meet him somewhere but he said no can I come to your place I can't be here I thought about it cause I knew trey was on the run but I know Ryan never met trey so I agreed and gave him the address next thing I know 10 minutes later cops are swarming the place and Ryan comes in wearing a uniform I felt so betrayed but also so horrible because I got trey caught I loved trey and I still do which is why I do drugs to suppress all the feelings I have for him seeing him today made them all rush back and made all the memories of what I let happen to my baby girl because she was a spitting image of him I let people hurt my daughter for drugs I'm the worst mother ever how could I have lets those things happen I couldn't stop the tears from falling I decided that trey was right I need help i decided to go up stairs and put on some actual clothes instead of looking like a crack whore I take a shower put on my clothes and head to the rehab center and check myself in and hope my baby girl can forgive me once I'm clean I miss my Janice I'm doing this for my baby girl it's time to get clean ....