Tattooed Hearts

Chapter 14: Forgiveness

"The doctor informed me that you would be able to go home tomorrow." Maks tells Meryl, sitting next to her bed

"Oh" Meryl sighed

Maks was startled at her response to say the least. He was expecting to be stomped over by a whole speech on how to be a decent fucking person, however, he wasn't going to complain. Maybe today changed. Maybe she finally changed her mind.

"Look, I know that you don't want to see me again right now, but I had to make sure you're okay. And I know that I haven't been very good at showing it, but you mean much more to me than you know... Give me one more chance to make it up to you. I'll do anything. Just let me work my way back up, I'll show you that I'm worthy of your trust. I can't let it end like this. I won't let it. I won't lose you again, Meryl."

Meryl turned her face away from him. At that point, she had no idea how to express herself, nor does she know what to say to him. He's caused her pain, misery, agony, and complete despair. Nevertheless, he gave her happiness more than anyone else has ever given her, and also made her believe in love.

"Say something... Please?" Maks says gently

"... Maks... I... Look at me... I'm vulnerably laying on this bed helplessly counting the hours wasted being stuck here, all because I was too weak to withstand a harsh fall..." Her voice started to crack, "I'm weak Maks... I'm weak and fragile... You've torn me apart; over and over again."

"I know, and I cannot put into words how much I regret hurting you and how deeply sorry I am. It wasn't fair to you and it never will be. I made you keep a promise, yet I still let myself become the foolish one."

"I don't hate you." Meryl whimpered, letting a tear drop down. Maks blinked for a moment, giving Meryl a confused look. "What?" he whispered

"I may not appreciate any of the actions that you took; or didn't take, but I certainly don't hate you. How could I? I've developed far too much affection to actually physically or mentally hate you. Besides... I still love you the same" Meryl slowly formed a smile

I am not the first person you loved.

You are not the first person I looked at

with a mouthful of forevers. We

have both known loss like the sharp edges

of a knife. We have both lived with lips

more scar tissue than skin. Our love came

unannounced in the middle of the night.

Our love came when we'd given up

on asking love to come. I think

that has to be part

of its miracle.

This is how we heal.

I will kiss you like forgiveness. You

will hold me like I'm hope. Our arms

will bandage and we will press promises

between us like flowers in a book.

I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat

on your skin. I will write novels to the scar

of your nose. I will write a dictionary

of all the words I have used trying

to describe the way it feels to have finally,

finally found you.

And I will not be afraid

of your scars.

I know sometimes

it's still hard to let me see you

in all your cracked perfection,

but please know:

whether it's the days you burn

more brilliant than the sun

or the nights you collapse into my lap

your body broken into a thousand questions,

you are the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

I will love you when you are a still day.

I will love you when you are a hurricane.

- Mouthful of Forevers, Clementine Von Radics

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a/n

I'm officially at summer break, and I'm so excited to be writing more chapters! Hope you guys enjoyed this! Forgive me that it's a short chapter.