ABANDON(read at your own risk)

Chapter 1

A/n: Hi! I'm a friend of @amazing33 {@Hudaaaa on wp} and I will be SLOWLY editing this story! :)

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Have you ever experienced what hell felt like? Well, I've kinda have, but not fully. I got used to the feeling of getting beat like there is no tomorrow. I've wished there was no tomorrow, but sadly there is.

I've always thought of committing suicide. How would it feel? Would it hurt or would I feel nothing like always? Numbness.... nothing... that's what I always feel and feeling right know too. They make it seem so easy in the movies. Is it easy? Committing I mean.

I remembered my mom's death. Did she feel anything? Was it painful to die?

It happened a long time ago, when I was only ten years old. My mother passed away and two weeks after that I moved into this hell hole I call my uncle's house. Two weeks after my mother's death and my whole life turned around right in front of my eyes.

~Flashback~

"Bye mom, love you." I say as I kissed my mom's forehead goodbye. I took my older brother's, Samuel, who I call Sam, hand and let him lead the way to his car.

"Bye honey. Have fun at school." My mom calls out.

I walked out the house to the garage and got in Sam's blue Volvo.

"Put your seat-belt on." Sam said.

Sam's hair is is blond which he inherited from my dad (that's what our mom told us), blue eyes and a chubby figure, while I on the other hand, have long brown hair that's all the way down to my waist that's wavy at the end, and big green eyes that bulge out and brings out my face. I also got that from my mom.

We parked in front of the school and I got out to join my friends by the school's entrance.

*After school*

"Hey mom, we're home!" I exclaimed out loud.

I didn't hear anything at first, so I thought she didn't hear me. I said it louder, "MOM, WE'RE HOME!"

Nope nothing. My heart started to race and I imagined that someone came in and took my mom or worse maybe.. wait I can't think like that. No. No. No. She can't be!

I ran upstairs and checked the room,the bathroom and I still didn't find my mom. Wait, she could be inside the basement and fix the lighting because the light always turns off for no reason. I ran downstairs and opened the door. The lights were off.

I turned it on and I found nobody. I started to panic. My heart started to beat faster. My mom never leaves the house. She either tells us when she leaves or she takes us with her.

I ran back upstairs and went into the kitchen. I stopped, and what I saw made my heart stop.There in the middle of the kitchen I saw my mom laying with a pool of blood around her!

I went to her side and prayed silently inside my head that she was at lest a little bit awake. I took her hand and crouched by her side. Her hands felt cold and her eyes were shut together. I knew in that mili second that my prayers weren't accepted.

I ran outside with tears blurring my vision as they started to make their way out.''Sam, mom... mom is... she's...''

I couldn't even finish my sentence.

I think Sam got the idea of what I was about to say, because he was running to the house in seconds.I was right behind him.

After that, the police came and took me away. Before I left my brother Sam told me something. I remember it clearly.

He cupped my face with his chubby hand and looked me in the eye,''Demi, I need u to stay strong.. I'll be back when it's time."

''But, where are you going?"

''I'm gonna go and look for a place that is safe for me and you to live.''

He paused then said something that shook my ears,''A place that feels like home. Only me and you can stay and even pretend we were the old us!'' He said excitedly.

"What old us?'' I didn't know what he was talking about.

He replied back saying,''The family we use to be, before anything happened."

I could see his eyes twinkling with that idea sinking into his head.

~End Flashback~

That's the last thing he said to me.