i do not own harry potter i simply thoguht of this at some poitn of myabe some of snapes thoguhts at the final batle
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A man stood in at the window to the headmasters office. No I wasn’t a man I never could be. I failed so many things in my life. Including protecting him. I swore to protect her son and I failed. Staring out at the stars I began to wonder why they had been burning so bight tonight of all nights. When right out side there raged a war. I war that I was sure we would not Win. Why would we when the boy who lived the chosen one. Harry potter was going to walk to his death. The dark lord would kill him and then surly take over. I stood there in silince for a moment . taking in the beauty of the stars and all the sudden I realized all the beauty in the world every peace of beauty was suddenly know t me and among them was she. “lily,” I whispered I closed my eyes seeing her green eyes and how they used to sparkle and lligth up when we were younger. How she used to punch me playfully when I said soemthign sarcastic. Visions of al the good thigns we did and happened passed through me. I rembered Christmas fourth year, I was going to stay here instead of going back to the place that was a pathtic excuse for a home. When lily invited me to stay with her. At first is traight out said no but then she looked at me pleadingly like a puppy. Her emrald eyes sparkled and I couldn’t help but give in. I felt as the coner of my mouth twitched up and a smile and my ehart fluttered as I remembered the snow ball fight and the un wrapping of the small silver pocket watch she gave me. As I I opened it there was a picture of both of us arms around eacher other her bright smile lighting the world. I hadn’t stared at the camera but at her in the picture I looked with great interest at her. Slowly I stuck my hand in my pocket and pulled it out. My hands clutched the watch. I opened my eyes and opened the watch I stared at the picture of us together. And I felt as my knuckles tightand my heart throbbed. “I’m sorry, lils, I couldn’t keep him safe. I tried but Dumbledor played him and m as pawns in his stuiped game for the greater good. I truly am sorry.” I felt as a sudden urge of anger flooded over me. And I closed the watch clutching it tight in my hand. I truned on my heel and began pacing the floor of the office. “you bitter old man. Why would yo play him as a pawn? You told me I needed to protect him for lily, you used me more than once. You played of my affection just like you will do to him. Why? We are all human? We aren’t pawns in a game of chess? Why old man why did you play us as such? Did you do it because you didn’t want to look bad?oh no it would eb horrible to let little old Albus look bad. Tell me Dumbledor did you ever care ro was everything you did and do part of your game for the “greater good” was the lived you sacrificed willing any impotence to you at all? WAS IT OLD MAN?DID YOU EVER CARE THAT YOU KILLED INCCOENT PEOPLE ONLY FOR SOME STUIPED LITTL GMAE THAT YOU DREW THIS WAR TO BE? DID IT MATTER THAT BY MAKING ME KILL YOU THAT MY SOUL WOULDN’T BE TORN OR THAT BY PLAYING OF MY LOVE FOR HER FOR LILY THAT I DIED WITH HER? DID IT EVER OCCURE IN YOUR BRILLAINT MIND?”I stood rooted in front of the picture of Dumbledor my breath raged form my rant. “Tell me old man, was every life lost just another nesscarity for your little chess game?” I hissed
The man simply stared at me his blue eyes glinting as they did in his life.”now Severus, you know as well as I do that everything that has happened so far is the reason I can asure we will win. Not only that me boy but isn’t love the most important thing in this life” “no I spat no it’s not Albus because if it were she would be alive. They all would you played me you played all of us. And you will contiue to. Even after your death. Where not pawns Albus we aren’t playing chess his is life nto a game and to play with peoples love its not right.” I, hissed between my raged breathing I was glaring at th man who wore a simpley calm stare and a mad twinkle in his eye. ” Now Severus, I did not make you do anything. Yes I persuaded you but what you have done has been done out of you own will. I asked you to tell the boy this information because it is vital information he must die Severus, there is no other way if there were I assure you I would have tried for it. As for others deaths they we not in my control. And as for lily, my boy I could not have stopped her from stepping front of tom to protect her son. That was her choice, love has no boundries. “ “ I still see no need for his death. It only makes her sacrifce in vain. All of this was for nothing. “i breathed still glaring a scowl on my face. ”Well, Severus I could talk all night about why love is the most driven of all emotions but, you have to go find the boy and tell him of his fate. Go my boy finish what you started other wise everything you have done will be in vain. “ at the an moved out of the photo and he was gone. Silentely I cursed him under my breathe. picking up my wand and stuffing the watch in my robes pocket I headed to the door. I was greeted by a silver mist that spoke “the dark lord wishes to see you Severus.” And with that I opened the door and looking back one more time. At the office I had occupied a lot over the last few years. And as I closed the door I closed the rest of the world behind me with only one thoguth in mind “I love you lily.”
