more than friends// jacob sartorius

Chapter 13

    ~after school (basically at home)~
  I went home and Jenny was at soccer practice so I was alone. I ran up to my room and looked in my mirror. I saw a sad, broken down girl. I was debating on wether to call Jacob and ask him what's going on or not. I'll call him later I said to myself.
  I just sat on the floor crying lightly. I felt numb and barely any tears came out. I completely forgot about calling Mark. All well. I just fell asleep.
Jacobs pov:
  I felt no regret on cheating on Chloe. She cheating on me first with Mark so why should I feel bad. The worst part was I was feeling more love for Chloe.
  I'm not gonna lie I actually liked kissing Brooke. I know Chloe saw. I saw her out of the corner of my eye.
  I later felt something. I felt guilty. I don't know why. She cheated on me first. With my best friend. Brooke told me after school yesterday. At first I didn't believe her but after I saw how her Mark talked together a lot and how they sit together on the bus I knew it was true.
Chloe's pov:
  I woke up after like 20 minutes. My stomach hurt like hell. I decided to be strong and call Jacob. He probably won't answer but whatever.
The call
Jacob-what do you want?
Chloe-why are you mad at me?
Jacob-it's not like me girlfriend cheated on me with my best friend.
Chloe-what!? Who told you that?!
Jacob-Brooke. It's true isn't it?
Chloe-first of all that's a lie and second of all I saw you and her making out in the corner of the hallway. Thanks for kissing back to her.
Jacob-well you cheated fir-
  I hung up on him before he could say anything else. I broke down on the floor and cried. I cried till I was numb.
  There was a box hidden in my bottom drawer of my dresser. Inside was a sharp blade. I've been clean for almost a year.
  It's weird how I can kill my pain with pain. I cut twice. One cut for Jacob believing Brooke and another one for him kissing her. I realized what I've done. I cleaned my arm and put on a sweatshirt to hide my scars.
  After a few hours I decided not to feel sorry for my self anymore. Why do I care about some jerk who broke my heart?
  I walked out the door and went to Jacobs house. I knocked and jacob answered a few seconds later. He opened the door. He was wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt. "What do you want?" Jacob said harshly. "It's over." I said confidently. "What?" Jacob said. "I said we are over." I said. "You can't be serious?" He said. "I'm serious. I'm not making my self feel bad over some boy. So if you want to believe some slut and cheat on me that's fine. We're done." I said holding back tears. "Bye" he said. I walked away from his door feeling empty again.
Jacobs pov:
  What have I done? I just lost the girl I love. Did I just say I love Chloe? I guess I did but she cheated on me and that really hurt me.
  I guess I will just put on a fake smile and pretend I'm happy when I'm dying inside. Yay. Mark doesn't even know why I'm mad but I guess his new girlfriend Chloe will tell him.
  I'm just gonna sleep all weekend. I'll probably forget about this day, hopefully.