Time Controller

Deer,Look At Me

"Wake up sleepy head.." I feel someone shaking my shoulder..

"We will be late if you don't wake up now.." this voice..it's like..Luhan hyung??

I open my eyes slowly..I see Luhan hyung..he is in front of me..I hug him..because I really miss him..

"Are you okey Tao??do you hurt??" He loose the hug..

"No..I just..feel like..want to hug you.." I start to tear up..not because of him..but because I'm hurt..my heart is hurt.. I can't stop Kris hyung..and now..Luhan hyung too will leave us..

He hug me back..try to calm me..

"Don't cry okey??seeing you crying make my heart hurt.." he tapping my back..

"Hurry up..we will be late!!" Sehun enter my room and he look shock..

"I'm sorry..I will get ready now..give me 20 minutes.." I wipes my tear and stand up..

I take my towel and go to the bath room..when I walk next to Sehun..suddenly he hug me from behide..

"Tao hyung..don't cry..be happy.. crying not suit you..now go get bath..you smell bad.." he loose the hug and run away..before I can say anything..

SM Ent.

We are practicing really hard to remember the new position.. well we need to change the position in our dance to cover Kris hyung part..I not making any mistake because I already do it in the past time..I remember it..but not for the members..

"We take 30 okey.." we all sit down and drink water..it's like hell training..

"This Sunday we can go anywhere we want..where will you guys go??" Ask Suho hyung..

"Chen,Chanyeol,Baekhyun they want to go to mall..they want to buy new video game..Suho..you, D.O and Lay want to go to mall right??bring them with you okey??" Xiumin hyung ask Suho hyung..

"Okey..how about the other??"

"I just want to stay at the dorm.." I reply Suho hyung while playing with my phone..

"Me too..Xiumin hyung too stay at the dorm right??" Ask Kai to Xiumin hyung..

"Yes Kai.."

"I want to go to bubble tea shop..do you want to come with me??" Luhan hyung look at Sehun..Sehun just nod..

"Then it settle..don't make trouble okey??"

"Okey~~!" Everyone shout..except me..

We continue our practice..until 8 p.m..after we go back to our dorm..everyone doing their own thing..D.O and Suho hyung cooking for dinner..Chanyeol and Lay hyung playing guitar..Baekhyun hyung really busy about his makeup..Sehun and Kai just running around.. Chen hyung is trolling Luhan hyung..Xiumin is watching TV..and me..alone at my room..I search for Kris hyung Instagram..send him message at Instagram..but..

"You have been block.."

"What??like seriously?!why he block me??" Without I realize I shout..well I angry..who can control themself if they are really angry right..

"What happen Tao??" Luhan hyung enter my room and sit at my bed..

"Nothing..just leave me alone hyung.." I ignore him..

"Is it because Kris block you??"
I surprise that he know..

I make face like "how you know that?"

"Because he block all of us..not just you.." I low my head..

"Why..how..could him..block us.."

"SM Ent. make he do that.."

"Its my fault..all of this..is my fault.." I crying at Luhan hyung shoulder..

"No..it's not your fault or anyone..it's SM Ent. fault..please don't cry.." he hug me and ask me to calm down..

"No hyung..it is my fault because I fail to stop him..if this time I fail to stop you too..it's really my fault why EXO can't be happy.. moreover..after you leave..I also need to leave..just making promise it's won't stop you..so I need to tell the true.." I lift my head..as I open my mouth..Xiumin hyung call Luhan hyung..

"Luhan..give me a little help here.."

"I'm coming.." he turn his head back to me..

"I need to go..don't cry again okey??you look more handsome if you smile.." he give me a wink before run to down stairs..

I sigh..why it's so hard to change the past??I laid on my bed and listen to music..try to calm down..I think..what should I do..to stop Luhan hyung..

Sunday

It Sunday..the day that I waiting for..Luhan hyung and Sehun will get out at 10 a.m sharp..to go to bubble tea shop..and will talking about something..I didn't need to follow them because I know the place..if you still don't know how I know..well this is my second time live in the time right??so its mean this the second time I experience this moment..after they left I change my cloth and walk to the shop..I wearing mask and cap..so no one will know about me..I order and sit behind Luhan hyung secretly..

"Sehun..can you promise me something??" Promise?

"Of course can..but promise about what??"

"Promise that you will be strong man..it's not body..but heart.. don't make trouble..help Suho to take care of us..okey??" Its really like Sehun tell me in the past..

"Okey hyung..I promise..but why you sound like someone who want to leave??"

"..................." of course he is..

"You..are not..leaving us..like Kris hyung..right?" I can feel like Sehun will cry now if Luhan hyung say yes..

"No..of course not..why would I.."
Liar..you did left..but I will change that..

I take my bubble tea and snack..I don't sit there back..I go to our dorm..I don't want to hear Luhan's hyung lie anymore..I open our dorm door and..

"Can I have some of your bubble tea??" Xiumin hyung look cute..he must be hungry..

"Hyung..can I eat your snack?? I'm hungry.." Kai Kai..I shake my head..

"Here..you two can have it..I already full.." I hand over the snack and the bubble tea to them..

I walk to Luhan hyung room..I want to wait him in his room.. well..to stop him..I wish I will be success this time..at first I want to sit at Luhan's hyung bed but I sit at Xiumin hyung bed..I afaird he will kick me off his bed..I thought I want to wait him until he come back.. but they take to long and I fall asleep..

*what is this??I try to make this fanfic have sad and happy moment..but why all of it about sad moment??aahhh!!
(Author having mental broke down)*