Hello
I don't know who will be reading this but if you are thank you for listening well reading 😂.
I shouldn't be feeling the way I feel. It's not fair on my family and friends. Everyone else is so perfect and then there's me.
I want the pain to end.
As I am writing this I am debating whether i should just let go or hold on a bit longer.
There are days when I feel like I'm on cloud 9 and then there's other days when I feel like the world hates me. I want to give up. I hate myself.
The voice in my head is slowly giving up. I don't know what to do.
I'm not afraid of dying. Not anymore. In fact I'm quite intrigued on what's next after death.
I've tried to separate my self from loved ones but I can't. I always go back. I wish I didn't feel this way.
Sometimes I look at photos of when I was younger and I wonder what happened to that little girl who had no worries. Why can't I go back. I'm so tired of life.
Goodnight
Love me xox
