Waking to the crisp morning air feels as a bitter sweet privilege.
To know you're alive, yet wanting to vanish.
Yet not quite sure if you're awake.
I'm not awake. In fact I'm not sure where I am.
Tapping on the glass in the dark only to receive no response.
No lights, no noises, not even wind. Just my heart beat, these glass panes, and my whispers of help.
Only an open space, just long enough to walk to the center of the room.
Hitting my head on a chord and mild anger triggering me to grab it. A bright light burns my eyes before taking a small spin, questioning my surroundings. Just tall aged mirrors.
This is weird. My reflection is odd. She looks exactly like me but why is she smiling.
"'Come here, please. I have a secret.'"
The fact she could draw my trust using how gullible I am scares me.
She knew me but I don't know who she is so I walk to the mirror.
She whispered words of terror, of deep desires, and also of hated thoughts. Lies I've answered with, mistrust I had spun, and anger I have bubbled up.
Am I an awful person, what am I doing? What have I done.
She is me, I am her. Except she is who I hide deep down inside.
So who am I to look at myself in the mirror and see that perfect angelic face anymore?
What is my meaning in life, my purpose. Who exactly have I helped?
'Hello.'
'Wake up, Hello?'
These words woke my senses, coursing panic through my veins just enough to shock my body into an upright position.
"What do you want?"
What a god awful way to respond, but the feeling of panic left my heart drooping and fingertips feeling as though I should claw at the sheets beneath me.
'He's here. Get up, you're going to be late.'
Love. Love is the reason I'm awake at this hour.
Love is what I have caused, what I have held so passionately in my hands.
By the time the door is in view, a realization of my appearance took way.
Taking a quick glance in the mirror, guilt.
Opening the door, stepping outside.
There he is. My love. My mate, mine.
Looking at the way his appearance lightens has reminded me of exactly what my dream had meant.
