Protection (Siva Kaneswaran Story)

Epilouge

It has been three years since I had seen the boys. I was able to check and see where they were, once in a while. I bought their song that they had written about Andy, Carson, and I. Siva sand the part about me with so much emotion. I had heard that they were doing pretty well, over the years. I never saw a photo of Siva witha girl.

I had enough of my uncle getting in my business. I had heard that they were going to be preforming at a club near me. I decided that I was going to go there. I knew that it was a risk, but I had to see him, one more time.

I got dressed in a silver club dress that had a high neck, so that it covered my scar. I had dyed my hair back to it's natural color. I looked nearly the same as I had three years ago. Now, I had to make sure that they didn't really see me. I knew that this would be hard.

When I got to the club, I saw that they were already there. I walked in and I went to the bar. I stood there and watched them on the stage. They all looked really good. I saw that Tom had a huge wedding ring on his finger. Nathan was growing some facial hair and he had both of his arms covered in tattoos. Max was letting his hair grow out. Jay had gotten more tatoos on his arms. Siva had a slightly different hair cut. He seemed to like to wear it in a messy way.

As I stood there, I felt like I was going to cry. I couldn't stand being there anymore. I walked to the door, but I stopped and looked at them one more time. None of them had seen me. I was glad, but I needed to tell Siva that I loved him. I had to tell him, just once.

I then walked to the backstage area. There was no one that was guarding it, so I stood there. When I heard them play their final song, I hid. I wasn't sure why I did that, but I felt like I needed to. I stood behind some speakers. They walked to the back and they all seemed to be hyped up.

"I think that I am going to grab a drink." Max said. He then walked out into the audience. Jay and Tom followed him soon after. Then it was just Nathan and Siva.

"Are you okay, mate?" Nathan asked Siva. I saw that there was something wrong.

"Yeah, I will be. Let's go have some fun." He said. The two of them walked out. I saw them. I should go.

"No, you have to tell him." I said quietly. I then walked after them. I only want to see Siva.

I was able to hide nehind people. I could have sworn that Nathan saw me, but he didn't say anything. I watched them. I was shocked at the way that they have changed. Tom seemed to be more responsible. Max was a little more respectful with alcohol. Jay was now walking up to women and flirting with them. Nathan was still staying away from everyone, but he seemed to be a lot more comfortable with it. Siva seemed to be trying to drown his demons, though.

Finally, he walked away from the others. I walked over to him, but I didn't let him see me, yet. I then grabbed his hand and I guided him to the bathrooms. All that he knew was that there was a blond that was taking him to the bathrooms. I heard his protests, but I didn't say anything. I took him in the women's restroom. I locked the door to the room, as I pushed him in.

"What the fuck are you doing?" He asked me. I could tell that he was really angry. I kept my back to him. You could walk out. You could just walk away and pretned like it never even happened.

"Excuse me, but what is wrong with you?" He asked. I sighed and turned around. I facced him and stood there. He looked at me and dropped his jaw.

"No, you. You are dead. You died." He said finally.

"You thought that I did. But I am here." I told him.  I stood there and watched him.

"You aren't real." He said. I sighed and looked around the room.