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Oblivious

"Because I love you so much.
It hurts so much when you say
I'm just a friend.
I'm standing outside the line
That I can't ever cross."
-hopeless love, PARK JI MIN(15&).
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"YAH! JACKSON!!!"

"What? Why are you screaming?"
"Stop staring at Namjoon's butt and listen to me for once, boi!"
"What's so wrong in staring at my boyfriend's butt?", he asked.
"I feel peanut butter and jelly okay! You get to be with the one you like, while I have to sit on the sidelines and watch the boy I love, be oblivious about my feelings for him!"

Yep, you read that right. I love Kim Yugyeom. It's been more than three months that I have admitted that to myself. And even now, after more than half a year of knowing him, and giving him huge ass hints, he still doesn't know. Urgh!
If he wasn't so cute, I would have already bashed his face into the nearest wall with impatience. He's just so....
Oblivious.

"Yah! Alex! At least you listen to me and my painful story", I told her while snapping her out of her daydream. Must be about Mark. Psh. This girl!
"Huh? Oh y-yeah. I'm listening", she pretended.
"Yeah right", I made a face at her, "As if you weren't just having a wet daydream about our Markie-poo."
"Yah! I'm not thinking about that. Aish! I'm going! Bye!"
She ran away from me while trying to cover her flushed face.
Why isn't anyone listening to me today? T^T

Alex (or Alexis) is my foster sister. She is an exchange student from England and my home is her foster home. She's really cool. But not when I tease her about her huge crush on Mark. She turns into a chipmunk at the mention of his name. It's really funny.

I left Jackson and Namjoon alone, not being a fan of third wheeling, and went to search for my Yugyeom.
Aish! I have to stop calling him 'my Yugyeom' when he clearly isn't mine. Well, not yet. MUAHAHA!

Ooh! I found him. Wah! Even his back looks so attractive.
I stopped shooting hearts at his back when I saw an insect clinging onto his arm. That insect's name was Hey Rin.
God! I hate her. She always tries to cling on Yugyeom and shove her invisible assets in his face. God! Stay in your lane, gurl!

Seeing her clinging onto Yugyeom like that filled me with anger.
How dare she touch what's mine. Well, not mine exactly, but you know what I mean.
I was 0.0000000000001 seconds away from breaking her arm and shoving it into her ass and then later feeding it to pigs (because dogs are too mainstream), when I noticed that Yugyeom never made a move to distance her from himself. An ugly question popped into my head.
Does he like her?

Dread filled within me. I could hear my heart crack and shatter into a million pieces. Tears welled up in my eyes at my thoughts.
Of course! How could I be so stupid and think that a guy -as perfect as him- will like someone like me.
So is this why he didn't notice me and my feelings? Because he already has his eyes on someone else?
Or he knows about my feelings and chooses to ignore them? And for who? That insect?
And the worst part? They're standing right next to my locker!
Wah- the world seriously hates me!

Trying to ignore them and my rage, I slowly walked upto my locker and opened it.
I willed my eyes not to look at him, but they didn't listen.
I looked at him and nearly laughed at myself for jumping to conclusions. He had an awkward smile on his face that looked more like a grimace, his posture screamed- uncomfortable, and his eyes were desperately searching for  an escape.
I'm seriously a 바보 (fool) to think that my Yugyeom would like her. I slowly regained my confidence and decided to put him out of his misery.

"Are you free this weekend? If not, then we could 'hang out' you know", Hey Rin, the insect asked him with a suggestive tone. I mentally puked.
Before Yugyeom could muster a reply, I went and stood next to him, entwining our fingers. He looked up at me and blushed at our hands.
Not now Yugyeom! I'm trying to beat up an insect here! Sthap with the cuteness! *bambam's voice* BOIII!
After mentally scolding him and ignoring my own flushed cheeks, I turned to the insect.
"Oops, sorry Hey Rin, but Yugyeom has already promised me a date on the weekends. Better luck... Never!"
I smirked at her outraged face. That'll teach her not to touch what's mine! Hah!

I pulled Yugyeom out of the hallway and walked till the time we reached the school garden. I sat down on the nearest bench, still not letting his hand go. He stood in front of me, still blushing and smiling.
Aigooo! Kyeopta!!!
I finally let go of his hand and motioned him to sit next to me. He sat down and I took his hand in mine again and started to toy with it with a permanent blush on my face.

"Thanks for saving me back there, Lily"
I looked up and faced his sincere smile. My heat was gonna break through my rib cage any second now, "You're a great friend."
Yep. That's right. Kim Yugyeom has friend-zoned me. I hate this. But still, for him, I'll wait till he is ready and approaches me. That's the only reason why I haven't confessed yet. I respect his boundaries, even though they are a pain in the jaeBUTT sometimes. LULZ. I'm so funny. XD
"It's alright. Anything for you, Yugyeom."
He blushed and looked away. I leaned back and stared at him. He's so... Ethereal.
"The flowers here are so beautiful", he said while observing the garden. Without missing a beat I said, "You're the most beautiful one among them." His cheeks gained colour at that.
"Yah! Stop teasing me!"
See- oblivious, isn't he?
"Who says I'm teasing?", I made sure to stare directly at him while saying that so that he'll see the sincerity in my eyes and words. But, of course, he didn't. He just smiled, his red cheeks flushing madly, and looked away.
I sighed.
Oblivious.

"-and this one, right here", Jinyong said while pointing at the book, "Is my personal favourite. You should try reading it."
The guys and I, along with Alex, were sitting under a huge tree of a local neighbourhood park. Jinyong and I were currently discussing about our obsession with novels. Turns out, he like the same stuff as me. Wah! Pretty face with interesting novel choices. He's what I call, Mr. Right. But just not mine.
Sigh. My Mr. Right was sitting next to Alex, with his back leaning on the tree, making a cute face for a selfie, and listening to music. He looked perfect even like that. Well, he always does. （≧∇≦）

I got up from my position, that was laying on the ground with my head on Jinyong's lap, and headed to Yugyeom.
On reaching him, I spread his legs a bit and sat down, my back facing his chest. He gave me a questioning glance, his cheeks already red, but I just shrugged in reply.
I took out one of his ear phones and plugged it in my ears and began reading the book Jinyoung suggested.
I have to admit, even though I was very comfortable in this position, my heart wouldn't stop beating hastily even for a second. I attempted to cover my tinted cheeks with my book and just started at the words in front of me, not really paying attention at them.
My attention was already arrested by the one on whom my back was currently resting on.
Kim Yugyeom.

I looked ahead and saw Jackson snickering at me. I made a face and then proceeded to throw a handful of grass at him.
You see, this was all his plan. Plan-increase-your-skinship-with-Yugyeom-and-he-won't-be-as-oblivious-about-your-feelings-and-maybe-you-can-cross-the-line-of-friendship-and-get-to-his-heart. Yep, you guessed it. Jackson came up with the name. *shakes head in embarrassment*
I sighed. I've been doing that a lot lately, sighing.
This whole past week I've tried to increase my skinship with Yugyeom (not to the point where it becomes uncomfortable) and ignored my raging hormones and burning cheeks. So far, Yugyeom still thought that I was just teasing him. I mean, how can he not feel my heart going into cardiac arrest every time he smiles!
Jackson told me that Yugyeom just thinks that I'm playing around with him and just plain teasing him.
Gawd! This boy is sO FREAKIN OBLIVIOUS!
My eyes stopped aimlessly skimming through the page of my book when I saw a sentence that I wanted to scream, at the boy behind me till his ears bleed so that he can believe me. But I'm too much of a coward to scream it out (and definitely not a fan of bleeding ears), so I just whisper-shouted and hoped he would notice that it was directed at him.

"I LOVE YOU!"