Love, Hate, and Confusion

She Devil

**First day of school still**

Of all people who had to walk in that classroom and sit right beside Matthew and I, was Ashley Palmer.

Right when she sat down, I knew it wasn't long before she basically through herself at Matthew. She only does this to the sweet, caring, and might I add, attractive guys around here.

Pretty soon, there's no doubt that she'll become friends with him, then ask for more.

Sure enough, she got him to talk to her and they are now hitting it off.

Laughing and joking like I'm not even here. Like she didn't just steal him away from me.

I was so glad that Grace was in this class with me. At least then I'd have my best friend with me to hold me back from attacking her.

Right as I thought that, I saw my gorgeous best friend walk in the room looking around, when she spotted me, her face broke out into a smile. She raced over here to me, but as she came near, she saw that I was glaring at Ashley. Once she was seated on the other side of me, she immediately turned all around to face me straight on.

All she said was " What the hell happened"!

I took a deep breath, claiming myself before I explained everything that happened. How me and Matthew sat down beside each other and was talking, just enjoying being together when Ashley walked into the room and immediately came over to sit beside Matthew. Then they just started talking and laughing and haven't stopped.

I told her how I was scared of losing him. That I really like him and I know how stupid I sound for acting this way and feeling jealous and all. Especially if we're not even dating and are barely friends, but that I just can't help myself. I've never been more happier than I am when I'm with him.

Hell, I even want him as my husband. I can see a future with Matthew. I really can and that scares me since I don't even think that he could like me the same way.

I'm nothing more than a friend to him and he only kissed me because he probably felt sorry for me. Sorry that I have never been kissed. Never had a boyfriend, or at least one that I cared about.

After I basically pored my heart out to Grace and told her everything that's happened, she was completely at a loss of words.

She finally spoke after she probably gathered up all her thoughts and what I had just told her.

"Nichole. You need to stop putting yourself down all the time. I know this is hard for you, but he isn't the only guy in the world. There are millions of others out there. Waiting for the right girl just like your waiting on the right boy. I know that you have feelings for him. I can see that. I do believe that he likes you to or why would he had kissed you? I don't think he feels sorry for you. He's barely known you for a few days. He looks like a pretty nice guy. He doesn't seem like the type to just kiss a girl for feeling sorry for them. Then just acting like it never happened. I may not know him yet, but from what I've heard and can see, he seems really great".

"Thanks Grace". That was all I could say before the teacher walked in and told everyone to quiet down.

"Hello class. I am Ms Kessler and I will be your math teacher through the year. I hope you all had a great summer. Anyways today I will be giving each one of you assigned seats for the rest of school".

We all groaned, but we're pretty much used to this from all the teachers, so we didn't complain much.

As she went through the list of all the popular, country, city, and in between people she finally called my name. My seat was in the very back. No popular people were near me which was great. They never were my favorites. There was one seat on each side of me. Finally Ms Kessler got to the T's on the list and called Matthews name while pointing to his seat for the rest of the year.