monster | junmyeon

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*all chapters will be in junmyeon's pov from now on. 

my gut wrenches whenever i look at you.

i keep reassuring myself that everything is fine, that i'm overreacting, that nothing has changed, that i just need to take my fucking anxiety pills to pull through this period.

but even the pills aren't working anymore.

they've never really worked anyway. i was just lying to myself all this while. the memories will always haunt me ; they will always twist my insides, make me feel sick and guilty. just as i thought the pills banished them, they come back stronger than ever, ready to tear my freshly healed wounds apart again. 

it fucking hurts.

but of course, as always, 

there's no one that can take this pain away.