Adopted By PTV

Chapter 11

Chapter 11 - Why Meadow? Why?
((Trigger warning and maybe tears))
Meadow's POV

I was so proud of Fox. She is always so strong and happy. I love her to death. I also love the guys. But I don't know why they'd want a fuck up like me. I'm just Meadow. Boring, lifeless Meadow.

I've never felt like this before. Ever. I feel like it's what I'm supposed to do.
But what if they blame themselves? Nah they'll be happy I'm gone. I've never cared what people thought. So why do I now?
Ever since I came out online and in real life. Everyone has been distancing themselves from me. Like I have a disease. I'm scared without Fox. She was the one who made me strong.
She doesn't realise she's breaking me. She doesn't talk to me anymore. She just has lost hope I guess.
"Hey Bambi." Mama said walking in the door. I gave her a fake smile. She's the only one who really cares. At least that's what they say.
"Hey Mama."
"What's wrong darling?" She asked concerned
"Nothing just tired Fox was snoring last night." I said with a shrug.
"Alright darling." She kissed my forehead and left.
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Everyone has gone out to swim. I didn't go. I didn't want to. I have no energy left. Fox tried to stay but I told her it was alright that I just needed some rest.
But I didn't. I went into the bathroom and broke one of Dad's razors. I did write a goodbye note for dad, mama, Fox, and the rest of the guys. It was a lot of writing.
I looked into the mirror and didn't know why people thought that I was okay. I'm not okay. I promise. I looked at the blade. And made 30 cuts on each arm and thigh. I also took some pills. No one would be back in time to save me I'm going to die. And I'm happy.
"Goodbye. I love you." I say as I feel my body start to fail. Goodbye.

Allie's POV

We are on our way home to check on Bambi. She said she wasn't feeling well and I didn't question it. I don't have a reason not to trust her do I? We get home and dad unlocks the door.
"Bambi! Where are you?" I called out for her.
"She's probably asleep go check on her." Uncle Mike told me. So I did.
I saw the bathroom door shut and I knocked.
"Bambi? Are you in there?" I tried to go in but it was locked.
"Bambi?! Are you okay?" I yelled worried. Oh my god.
"DAD MAMA VIC MIKE JAIME HELP!" Next thing I know is people are rushing up here as I try to open this goddamn door. For once don't close the goddamn door! Eh wrong time?
Uncle Mike busts the door down and what I see makes me wanna throw up. My sister. My Bambi. My Harley Quinn. My Best Friend. My Meadow. Gone. Completely gone.
I fall to my knees and start sobbing and screaming. I crawl over to her and hold her. Not even realizing what's happening around me.
My Sister. My happiness.
I feel a piece of my heart shatter. And I keep sobbing.
"Why Meadow? Why?" I keep asking those questions.
I feel her getting taken from me.
"NO! GIVE HER BACK!" I scream. I feel someone holding me and I realise that is dad. I sob in his chest.
Why Meadow? Why?
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I actually hate myself for writing this. Tbh I cried a lot. I'm sorry. There will be another chapter then poof maybe a sequel after I get Finished with Fly and Time Daughter.