Why can't that be me? I have been trying so hard,well if you mean trying hard to sing really loud in my bathroom then yh I have been trying hard. I sat there staring at the Ariana Grande concert on TV yet my mind was in deep thought. I would like to be on that stage but I'm shy. I never wanna sing infront of anyone except my friends and when I do sing infront of others I get shaky (Smack myself in my mind). People always tell me to suck it up and stop being so afraid but it's hard to do that.I always have this dream that I was going to perform at a concert and I went on stage and froze and this dude threw a hot dog at me and then everyone else started to throw whatever they had in their hand even a bottle filled with drinks.It hurt me for days and the dream always feel real.I write songs too but I wouldn't dare to let anyone read them. I'm a coward when it comes to putting myself out there .It should really be me on that stage though with fans screaming Lux but no I ain't going nowhere I'm just stuck here being unknown.Don't get me wrong Ariana is very talented,I just mean I wish I could be as confident as her and just chase my dreams.
I'm sorry I didn't introduce myself I'm Lux Bradshaw.I'm 16 and I live in this dump called a home in Brooklyn.I don't know why I haven't left this place yet probably it's because my grandma's here and I don't want to leave her or maybe because I don't think I could find any friends anywhere else or maybe it's both.
Today is the beginning of my senior year,how sweet huh.Lola said she'll pick me up soon.My hair looked messy as ever so I grabbed my black beanie and threw it on.I went over to the mirror to scrutinize myself.
"This is as good as it gets," I said aloud to myself.
I really need new clothes these are disgusting.I snatched my bag from the bed and ran out my room.
"Bye grandma."
"Bye sweetie be home early we have church tonight," grandma said from the kitchen."And here,your lunch," she handed me the food and I exited the house.As I walked out the house I could see Lola's car parked by the sidewalk.
"Got a speeding ticket while driving here," I looked at Lola fixing her hair in the rear view mirror.
"No,I got a warning," she said with a cheeky smile.
"Huh again,I bet it was that pretty boy cop that likes you," I smirked.
"Maybe."
"Ha I knew it.He's a perv you know."
"Yes I know he won't leave me alone but it's good that he likes me then I know I won't get any speeding tickets for a long while," Lola put on her seat belt,"You ready."
"Yes but drive slow I'm not ready to die."
Lola laughed,"Okay messy head."
At School
School,the love of my life.It's not sarcastic it really is the love of my life.School is the only way I can get out of that dump of a place.
"Guess what," Lola looked at me taking off my seat belt.
I stopped in my motion,"What?"
"Guess."
"If it's another music contest thing just..."
"Come on Lux just try.It won't be so bad.You can sing, it won't be like those other kids who can't sing and embarrass themselves, your audible," Lola opened the car door.
"Still no.I'm not going up on that stage and stop bothering me about this."
"Okay okay," she raised her hands in peace,"I was just trying to help."
"Thank you for trying but no thanks."
"Anyway,Bella boy asked me for you," she slowly brought a smile across her face.
"Malik Bella?"
"Yes who else is Bella boy."
"Why is he asking for me?"
"I don't know dumbo maybe because he wants to ask you out."
"Me? Why would he want to ask me out?"
"Now you're just acting dumb," Lola gave me a straight face.
"But seriously,why?"
"Because he likes you and you're hot so."
I gave her a confused look then both of us looked at me up and down and frowned.
"We'll you're pretty," she gave a comforting look,"Come on Lux someone likes you isn't that great?"
"I guess," I shrugged.
"Yes, now there he is go talk to him."
"Right now?" I gave a shocking look.
"Yes! Now go ," Lola shooed me.
"Okaaay,fingers crossed."
