Writing.

Troubled Mind

Oh I'm troubled
Filled with painful situations
And scenarios
Thinking of nothing of the actions I do
Just doing them mindlessly
My actions are not right
But I'm not aware that they were wrong
Oh god the trouble I've caused
Trying to not make a mess
But the mess had already been made
What I'll do next
My god, I'm so afraid

I haven't balanced the love I have for both of you
I'm afraid I was trying to find the love I have for myself too
I haven't been very equal and I've been trying so hard
But it's not good enough
Cause it's tearing us apart
Everything seems to be getting in the way of everything
Countless hours together seems never to be enough
I wasn't trying to do anything wrong
I've been stuck for many days, weeks
Stuck in my own mind
I haven't got the time to think of what I'm doing wrong

Oh I'm troubled
Filled with many unsaid words and despair
I haven't got a clue of what's been happening around me
But goodness why didn't any choose to tell me before
Why is that you all kept it from me
I thought no one thought different of me
My god, was I wrong
So many things to say, so many things to do
My, this has all been so tough
I have become so torn apart and rough

Why I have no life in me anymore to spare
I'm losing my purpose
And I keep asking myself
Why am I still breathing in this air?