relatable poems

I'm Slowly Sinking Again..

I feel myself sinking again 

I want to cut again

I want to cry myself to sleep

I want revolution

I want peace

I want serinity

Everything around me feels like it's crashing around me

I want light in my eyes again and not tears or some kind of regret

Every flaw about me is counted and gives me number of cuts

Every cut is hidden away with lies 

Scared to tell the truth behind them

Afraid to be judged and put down

I climb this mountain of my process

But it keeps getting pitfalls

Keeps getting bigger or maybe it's cause I keep falling

Gets harder and harder to climb

I'm a bird learning how to fly

Everytime I start flying I get shot down

I get up and try again

Shot out of the sky again just thinking of giving up

I anchor myself but end up sinking with the ship

I swore I'd never sink

I guess it was a lie my heart kept hanging onto

Suddenly I'm sinking now

I'm traped by a dragon in a castle

He's eaten my prince

maybe my prince just dosen't want to come save me

I want set free

I fake everything about me

I fake my smile

I fake the look in my eyes when my true feelings come out

I lie bout I feel and how perfect my life is

You say you know me

You say you'd save me

You say you know how I feel

But do you really?

Every drop of my blood

Thats how much I'm ready to just let it take me

Tired of all the judgemental remarks

Why do you judge everyone by their past ot how they act?

Will this world let me climb the mountian I've been climbing?

Will it let me fly and watch me as I never come down again?

Will it let my prince come and slay the dragon?

Will it let this ship sail and never let me sink?

I'm second guessing everything bout this life I live

Should I even keep trying?

Someone give me answers

Show me that there is really hope still in this world