Sleeping with Sirens is making me feel so calm and so much better now. I'm happy and I've missed how sweet Kellin's voice sounded.
I have so many dreams when I'm older and for some reason everyones like "You can be an animator or a singer, and a YouTuber." And those sound nice but I'm going to be an adult in 2 years and I just want to do something that'll make me busy I guess so then I'll just be like "Oh I can't come to this party I have work" but I'll be around for holidays and stuff but what if I have a family farther in the future or at least want one?
What will my children call me? Mama or Papa? What if they hate how much I switch that they yell at me for it or what if they wished I was just their mother or just their father?
I'm not upset I'm just thinking and honestly what if nothing works out like I want it to? I'll never have this person forever because that's just not possible. What if my child hates me? What if I'm not good enough to do the things I want?
Like why is life like this? Why do we live with fear and doubt? Why can't we just not feel such negativity? But then again if we change how the world is now it'll somehow change back to what we have. For example:
We live in their perfect world, we all agree on everything and we all get what we want etc etc. That can't happen because one person will disagree on something because this person is somehow "special" in this little world and they will think differently. Same goes if we flipped this over to negativity. Get it?
Anyway, I'm going to sing SWS music until my voice dies out and all I feel is numbing pain in my throat.
Bye bye🌻
ESTÁS LEYENDO
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