I sit here trying to focus but I cant. Constantly wondering when hes going to text me back, or when im going to see him again. If i dont call him will he call me? Will he even miss me?.. My birthday is in three days and all I want is to see him. Will he even remember? I'm trying to not miss him but hes all I ever think about. Two nights ago was the last i saw of him, and the last i heard of him. He told me to come to the park, so in one swift movement i threw a sweatshirt of did my make up and headed out my window and off my roof. I ran, about 5 blocks and twenty minutes later i was sitting at the picnic table with his strong warm arms around me and his warm sweet lips agenst my forehead then agenst mine. I feel such a sweet sensation as i kiss him and want to tell the world that hes mine and nobody else's. We walked through the dark for a whole enchanting hour. He would send girls pictures of us hugging and him kissing my cheek. I was sitting there in utter lust as he made me blush, little did i know-i wasnt going to hear from him again for a while.
He's been ignoring me. Two days and all i feel is hurt. This boy isnt just a fling, or a little high school crush, I believe its something real and he knows in the last seven months i have been falling deeper and deeper in love with him.
Its the day before my birthday and still no word from him. Is he okay? Is he mad at me? Is he with somebody else?.. The horrible thoughts continue to flood my mind as i worry and worry about a love who is not mine. I wait as my thoughts flood my mind, trying and failing at my sad attempt to not worry about him.
