Dear Ex-Best Friends

To the One I Left For

You let me believe in you.
You told me lies,
You convinced me that you were good.

But you weren't.

Did you plan on walking on and screwing up someone's life,
So fucking much?
Did you plan on giving her so much anxiety,
She couldn't even leave her own home?
Is that what you planned?

Did you want to screw her over,
And make everything in her life worse?
Did you want a little rag doll that you could throw around,
Like it was nothing?
And did you want to send me into a downward spiral?
Is that what you wanted?

Did you think that it was okay?
Did you really think that?
Did you think I needed those terrible things in my life at that point?
Did you honestly believe it was a good idea?

I told a lie to get away from you.
I know where I stand.
I know what I want.
You are a poison, a drug that was in my life,
One I thought I liked,
Until I came down from the high...

You were like a drug,
How ironic,
Maybe the saying should be,
You are what you do...