Stolen Heart

my secret

For the first time in a long time i had a okay day at school. It wasn't exactly good but it wasn't as bad as it could of been. Names still being throw from every direction but i wasnt phyiscally hurt today. Lunch i sat in the music block just watching through the glass. Thats what i sometimes do. Saved me all the hassel of being pushed around and thrown like a rag doll.

A secret that no one knows is that i like to sing. Its one of my escapes. But i cant sing thats the only problem.whenever im in my room at night i just listen to songs on youtube and sing to them quitely as obviously i cant play it or sing loud. i play it over and over again(warrior by demi lovato) memorising word by word.

My old best friend knew i sung. I had to make her swear she would never teĺl a soul. I dont if she has or not ( she is snakey!!).she know has bleach blonde hair and is one of the most meanest people i know. But hey as they say the people always change but the memories dont.

I have had a passion for singing for a long time now but no one has ever
Known. Unfortuantely my dad heard me once and scream at me to be quite "shut up you stupid cow,you know you mum is ill, how selfish of you." I didnt knoe how to react. I just froze in shock. My dad had been being really mean to me recently and i dont know why. Its slowly killing from not only having knifes stab me in the back at school and words thrown at me ,("bitch,cow,fat,worthless,go die,emo,cut,slag,ugly,freak")
But now my own dad insulting me in my own house.

I didnt know what to do anymore. I felt like breaking down and giving up completley. But i couldn't do that for my sister sake and dont know why but my dads.

My mum is worse than ever he skin pale and fragile not speaking and refusing to eat. Her herself was slowly giving up. It wasnt long till she would be gone it wouldnt take a genius to figure that out. Were struggling to keep our rent up as my dad has quit his job and is living on benefits.

Demons screaming inside my head telling me horrible things.telling me to just give in to them but i cant im fighting as hard as i can.

Authors note

I know it is fairly short but ive been a little stessed recently and had things going on .im bad at this im sorry but please keep reading💓💓