Thoughts

Emotional Roller Coasters-

     Have you ever heard a song, and it made you feel weird inside? Like warm and fuzzy, but sad at the same time? Certain songs make me remember things from last summer, the best summer of my life. And then I remember that Im no longer there, in the warmth of palm trees and the thrilling, yet scary roller coasters. It upsets me because I let people leave me, I let them leave me, or I left them and it pisses me off because I miss them. I miss my friends, I miss my old self, I miss the girl who was carefree and didnt give two craps and laughed over anything. I miss her a lot, and I miss my friends, and I miss everyone that ever made me feel good.

    Its late, and Im sad, Im upset, I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to go back to those memories, those memories that made me feel full. I JUST want to cry into my pillow, but no tears are coming out, I want to scream at the world, But i cant.

    Fxck emotions, fxck all the people i left, fxck all the people who left me, fxck all those people who said i couldnt do it, fxck memories, fxck life.

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I know this book was supposed to be funny and light hearted, but the thing is theres a demon inside of all of us, and my demons like to come out and play more often than my angels do.