Hated...

Now what??

Zayns POV

I hate you zayn....i hate you" she said as she turned around I grabbed her arms and pulled her close "I'm telling u the truth ashley" I said pissed off "z..z..zayn your hurting me" she whined "that's right in the only one who you think is hurting you" ... "And you are hurting me she said I let go of her arms and looked at it .... there was red hand marks on her arm my body got loosened as I looked at her "fuck I'm so sorry ... arghhh I don't know what's wrong with me" I screamed as my knees fell on the ground pulling my hair furiously "I wanna die ... just die" I said crying she stood there for a second as she bent down and held my hand "Don't you dare say that....." she said as the tears dripped down her face "what's the point of living when everything you have is gone no one trusts me I swear to god I didn't want to have sex with Perrie I love you so much Ashley I can't describe it your my life I don't wanna leave you because I've found my words to say I ..i..i..just can't take all this in I wanna die and I'm going to right now" I said getting up halfway

As Ashley pulled me down on the floor again "don't you dare say that.." she said again but this time with a warning tone "why not like have something to live and wait for I muttered her hands went tighter around my hands "you're always gonna regret that dying shit nobody in this world wants to lose you ok your lucky you have a life but my parents don't you know that they fought for their damn lives and over here you wanna risk of giving up your life no matter how bad,big or shitty this concussion gets i'll be the one suffering cause god damit you don't know how much you greakin mean to me and ... and ... and I don't wanna lose you zayn I don't wanna lose you" she said as a lot of tear drops down her face "just give me 1 more chance and you know I'll be worthy" I said she nodded as I pulled her into a hug "don't cry baby girl I'm here i'll keep you safe in my arms protected ......... I love you"

And as she drifted off to sleep I carried her and wrapped her around some blankets and layed her on her bed I explained to the boys as we sat fown and had a beer "awh fuck move your gun Niall I'm trying to kill that asshole" I yelled yea u heard me NIALL well we're working things out yeah know .........." Fuck no that asshole is mine to kill" Niall yelled back moving side to side with his controller I took a sip of my beer and threw my controller beside me "wtf you beat my high score fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!" I said my eyes wide open "I'm a GENIUS" Niall shirked "out shut up I have a girlfriend up there sleeping I whisper/yelled "sorry mr. nice guy" Niall said putting his hands up in defence

So what's up tommorrow" Louis asked walking in the room "idk maybe carnival or something?" Harry said "carnival sounds good" Liam said putting down his beer "yeah we can all go with our girl-friends" I said "hello we're single" Niall said pointing to Harry and himself I chuckled "well lad find yourself one I got up and went up the stairs "night bros" I said "night they all said I changed into my boxers and jumped on the bed and snuggled with Ashley

🎶 Your Hands Fits In Mine Like Its Made Just For Me .... But Bare This In Mind It Was Meant To Be! 🎶

I sang I felt Ashley move as she looked at me 'kiss me...... kiss me like you wanna be loved!" I leaned in and kissed her as we moved in sync I pulled her close and wrapped my arms around her little body as we both fell asleep