The day I lost it....
I realized that the day I lost it wasn't when I lost my first love, but the day I could look not just anybody in the eyes and say I can't wait till you die, or I won't cry if you die, but the day I realized that I could tell my own mother that....
I lost it when I realized that the little shadowy figure that every night would creep to the edge of my bed and lean over and watch e sleep stopped showing his face and I woke up being chocked by him I realized that was the day that I became him....
Who was he, is what I thought....
Then I realized it's the dark side of me just trying g it's ha rest to break it's chains and get free and ruin my life.... that was the day I realized I'm not going to hell I'm LIVING THE HELL
I realized that I had hit rock bottommy world became as dark as the dark energy that is causing our university to expand at an ever increasing rate just like the darkness where my soul had been it became filled with dark energy.... so did my heart....
I cried my self to sleep on even my birthday last year and this year (today is my birthday June 5th, 2016 I am now 16 years old) I feel so alone in this darkness will I ever be set free from this hell
