My deep feelings.

English

I'm a boy. Not a normal boy, but a boy. 100% boy. But you can't see it. You can't see that I can be a happy boy.

I'm not happy. You see the happy girl, but that's not me. I'm a sad boy. I hurt myself. I want to hurt myself, now. But nobody knows my feelings. Nobody knows my pain. Nobody can see it, because it's inside of me and I can't show it. Only a few persons know who I am, but they do not accept it. I don't know why. I hate myself. I hate my body. I hate who I am...

Sorry Mom...Sorry Dad but I can't live like this. I can't live this life. I can't be your perfect daughter. I can't be your daughter anymore. I am a boy. Please accept it. Please call me he, him and Jan. If you don't want it... I give up. I give up my life. I give up my friends and my family. I give up my fight. Mom? Dad? I love you.