Sacrifices We Make

Part 1

Kaitlin's POV

I had the biggest choice of my life. To follow my dreams or to follow my feelings. It seems like I can divide my time and I can meet the people I love here and continue my dreams in what everyone says it "the best college."

I mean I really really REALLY want to go there but leaving every memory i've had just kills me. I've had amazing adventures and phases I never want to leave but this opportunity was one of my dreams and desires since i was little. People say i should cherish the present and let everything flow by but i have to make the decision to leave or not.

I want to spread and express my feelings but it will only make it  even worst. So well umm, I got accepted in Harvard. Yaa I feel proud of myself because I never imagined being a Harvard student but i never realized I will have to  make this much sacrifice. My feelings flow so fast but I don't understand why is it so hard to express it. My feelings come variously, by suggestions or they just suddenly come to me.

I wish someone could understand what i am facing. I talked to my mother and i am really grateful to have her, but again and again she says that my feelings cannot corrupt my mind and ruin my dreams. So she is basically saying that I should go to Harvard.

My sister Kalani, says I should just make a simple decision and follow it but like how. She is damn successful and i'm here stuck with the choices i have. I haven't told anyone else, well except for Amanda but she says that it's my choice so i have to make it.

I don't want to tell anyone because of my worries that they will judge me. I feel like I need to tell my best friend Dylan but now there is this hollow space that creates a distance between us. I honestly have the biggest crush on him and i worry every time because i'm scared he will find out.

We used to be so close but ever since sophomore year came everything for me felt different. I was so determined to get a scholarship to Harvard I became the "nerd" and i was teased a lot because at junior i was one of the most popular people because of Dylan and at sophomore my "popular rank" dropped and i became the nerd.

I get bullied a lot and Dylan used to stand up for me and that's when my feelings for him grew more wild. He wasn't only the hottest boy i've ever seen he also has the biggest heart. When we were in freshman year we were playing tag and I was chasing him but i couldn't catch him because he was so fast.

When I was about to catch him I slipped and fell to the front. Dylan straight away ran to me with worries in his face and he lifted me up. I couldn't hold back the tears and they streamed down my face like a waterfall. Dylan cupped my cheek and using his thumb he wiped away all of my tears and he said smoothingly "it's alright, it's only a cut" and he said "if only i can transfer the pain so that you don't have to be the one hurting"

But now things are diffrent. We never really talk anymore because all he does now is suck random girls faces off. It hurts me everytime I see him in the halls of school holding hands or making out with diffrent types of girls. I realized how much i actually needed him and i need to get him back to be my best friend.

I know i'm pretty insane but I imagine scenarios that i get to be with him and he's just there for me. I cry everytime i imagine it because i know it's never going to happen.

I felt a sound in my ear and it was getting louder "KAIT, KAIT, KAITTT!!!!" I jumped in shock and realized it was my sister Kalani. I screamed back in her ear "WHY THE HECK DID YOU DO THAT FOR!!" Kalani stood up so that she was the same height as me and she said "well You were clearly daydreaming untill you were crying how could i let that happen to you!"

Wait what i zoned off. I can't believe it. I thought it wasn't real but i guess it is now because it happened to me. I said casually to her "I'm sorry i was just thinking" "mmhmm, thinking huh? Classic. And exactly what were you thinking about?" I knew i had to answer it but I can't explain it with feelings

"i was thinking about weather or not i should be going to harvard" she nodded understandably and said to me "well i'll leave you to it" without any hesitation she smiled at me and walked out of my room.

I lied in my bed and decided to watch netflix. I turned it on and i recieved a call. I checked the number and it wasn't in my contacts and i hoped so bad that it was Dylan.

When i finally answered it i answered "hello this is Kait speaking" and the person said " Oh well umm, as you see Kait i'm Caden" i sighed because i was hoping it was Dylan. Caden continued " well i am Dylan's best friend." I nodded but he couldn't see me "and wel-this has nothing to do with Dylan but Ms. Rosy asked me that i needed a umm tutor for my exam and Dylan said that you are really good so can you please take the offer"

I said yes and it's official i have to go to his house tommorow and there is going to be Dylan. I feel exited but nervous because I haven't talked to him for months and with this big choice. What am i supposed to do?

(A/N: well here is part 1 of the story, hope you liked it and there is probably errors in the story and i understand that it is weird so ya. MAKE SURE TO VOTE AND COMMENT:) )