sabian 2: the phoenix (IX)

god, what have i done

ive lost the hope for my own
god
she's already ripped me out of her scrap book
i am so weak
she's already so forgotten about me
how can i be so stupid?!?
i miss her so much
but she's moved on
so quick and elegant
why love when I cannot be loved
ugh
I want her back
i was wrong
but now she's happy
and i must be born into the next life
so pain must die
and in the process of dying
i hope pain drags me down with it
how will it all end is the question
like i said
long ago
death by hand