Garden Sprout

My First Kiss!!

His lips were warm, soft but rough at the same time. WAIT WHAT AM I SAYING? I push him back and scream " WHY DID YOU DO THAT! YOU IDIOT!!" I felt my face get hot and the cold tears run down my cheeks.
Flashback
" Come on, it's only a kiss. I won't hurt you. Promise " his gaze didn't move from my eyes, and unknowably I spoke " okay, be gentle please." His hand was around my waist, they were cold, cold as ice and I felt a shiver go down my whole body. No, this isn't right. I don't want this. "Wait... I don't want t-.." He put his hand over my mouth. I can't breath, he's suffocating me! I turn around with all my might but he's to strong, his hand went into my skirt. NO!! I'm not ready! I bit his hand as hard as I was able to and he let go immediately. My body felt weak.
" You b****!" He left the warehouse that we had snuck into. I texted my only friend haru-chan and called the police right after. I couldn't move. I felt afraid, more than afraid , I was scared out of my entire life. Who knew there was such a feeling. The police came and took me to my house and I asked my stepmother to take me to an all girls school from there on. I was only 12. So I was still growing. I am not ready for a mixed school. But I will definitely get over my fear slowly when I start high school.

Suddenly I remember where I was and I run out of the nurses office and head to the classroom where I should've been.
" Yuko!!" I heard him scream my name but I didn't stop, I don't want to be hurt again. I don't want that feeling to come back at me.
I heard foot steps come closer to me, I start to sprint but I could outrun him. "Stop already! I-I'm sorry ok?"
One, two steps , three. I hear the steps stop and I relax. "I just had this moment when I thought you were really, you know... Cute" I flinch at his words and turn around. He's blushing all the way to his ears.
Doki. Doki. Doki.
" what the.." I whisper to myself. What was that? Maybe I'm a little tired from running. He comes up to me and lifts my chin. "... I don't know made you scared but I didn't mean to harm you ." His words reach my mind. Not hurt me? Does this mean... " I think I've fallen for you." He speaks soft I thought I misheard him. My face feels hot again, not from being scared but from embarrassment . I understand what it means to like someone but the feeling are just to complicated. His hair is a mess. Geez. I reach up and fix his hair and look at him in the eyes. I don't feel scared.. I feel , happy.  "Can we.. Be friends for now?" I mumble. No response. I notice I looked down when I said so look up again and he's frozen. " err.. Yea, I'd like that a lot." His face got read again but this time it's all the way to his neck. So cute . I might just like him soon.
We walk to the classroom figuring out were in the same year and class. We walk in and everyone starts screaming " YEA!! Love birds! KISS KISS KISS KISS" I look over to a girl who's been staring at me, she notices and she gives me an evil look. " Stop it everyone. W-were just friends ." Said Kauro. Ba-thump
How come I felt uncomfortable when he said that?why do I feel scared when she looked over at me?
What are these new feelings? We take our seats and people quite down once the teacher comes in. I wonder what it will be like this year.